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Something to be thankful...

2011-06-18T22:44:00.002+08:00

Today, I am 28 years and 1 month old! Yippiieee!!

I've wanted to blog about this long before but I guess today would be the day. Even tho' not able to celebrate it with all those who had gone to rest *(beloved Mum, beloved hubby, grandpas,Popo and MSA) I'm still blessed with all the people around me who have filled my life and making my journey memorable. TQ for your prayers and moral support and whatever U do for me. GBU all!!

Life is always a never ending journey. I believe in fate and if this is the life God has planned for me, let it be. But if in the future it suddenly changed direction I accept what is written in my book of life. I have no power to change what is written for me because I believe I have a creator named; GOD. The creator who is always with me in times of good and bad, He knows what is best for me even tho' I feel bitter. He's Above ALL!!

These are the prezzies, ang paus I received! TQ soo much everyone!! Only God could repay all ur generousities. TQ S for trying to surprise me with the bb even tho' the plan didn't work out! hahahaaa... nice try! try again! <3 U all!

Forgive and forget?

2011-02-01T00:42:00.004+08:00

The title says it all.. How many times you are being offended by the people around you and also strangers?

Countless isn't, it? I know it's hard to forgive if the matter is big or very heart-breaking, let alone forgetting it.

Somebody told me her story about her bestie being a backstabber and it hurt her deeply that she couldn't look her in the eye. It's so sad their friendship turn out the other way round. But I advised her to learn to forgive and forget tho' it's not easy I said.

Been there before...

What will you do to the person who

~> marred your parents marriage? and

~> made your family fell apart? and

~> made you believe he loved your mom to death

~> acted like an angel and made people believe he was really mourning her death?

~> never showed up or clean her cemetery on her anniversaries? and

~> left leaving the deep scar stayed in your family?

I forgave him. :) Like I said before, it wasn't easy.

It took me years to forgive him and when I forgave him, I feel like my burden has been lifted and I felt a bit ease. My new struggles are mourning my beloved mum's death and praised the LORD above, I could let her go to Rest In Peace.

Now, every time I met him we would chat as if NOTHING ever happened to us in the past. I forgave him cos I know it's all GOD's plan and he's only full-filling his duty as a weak human being. Let GOD judge him and pay for what he did.

Even his new wife and children could talk to me like we had nothing to be mad at. Life is about making decisions. I chose to let go of my hatred because it has been eating me since my childhood time. I know it left a deep scar in my family lives but I guess some lessons we learn it the hard way. I know GOD is preparing us for something bigger and obstacles came to our lives not to destruct us but to instruct us.

No matter how deep the cut is, it all depends on yourselves either to forgive or not. I've watched the destructions and I don't want to make the mistakes that other people made.

~ Life is an accumulated of experiences...

Learning to let go is knowing how to confront it~

I'm still learning to confront it, how about you?

shopping for X'mas?

2010-12-01T22:31:00.002+08:00

my cute little cousin is eager to work part-time for school holidays but ended up building a blog for accessories.

try to get something for your friends and family who are teenagers or love accesories? well, tis is d stop-over!!

ENJOY SHOPPING

velvet @ beybet

think outside the box

2010-10-12T22:01:00.004+08:00

Watched tis movie last weekend(which I saw in fb, should be in cinema on 25 October 2010) with a great fren, it started with a slow + lame scene and I was guessing that it could be the most lame movie after "The Box". But we waited for awhile hoping it would be something but we ended laughing at how slow every scene and that some scene shouldn't be there.
My fren was furious but made my day when she gave her remarks and comments.. The movie indeed gave me something to laugh at, to enjoy at my partner reaction upon watching at the movie. I enjoyed the discussion after the movie. We left the cinema less than an hour! Wat a waste but we agreed that if we waited longer, we would end up ruining our mood!

The picture above was taken at the @mosphere. The restaurant is awesome!! so relaxing and the food is great!! I had a great time and I'm blessed!!! siooooookkkkkk!!! tQ !!!

A full swing exercise

2010-09-30T14:34:00.004+08:00

My life as a student begin this week. I planned my study schedule and directly follow what I plan. Frankly, I had a stress 1st day following my schedule but I'm happy that I didn't lose my temper but had to change it to my bad eating habit!(need to improve my mind control) Haiyaaa...rosak my diet plan 4 dat day~ had 3 heavy meals+ 2 snacking!

Well, my first week of studying didn't happen that easy also. The 2nd day, we had scouts meeting and the conclusion is another pile of work that would interfere my study schedule.. We had to do preparations for the camping which would be held this weekend. Haiya! Another this and that chores..I think I should change my schedule, lessen my time for study because I still has a lot of time for it and I need to adjust it with my work, relaxing time and social activities.

3rd day, a letter came from PPD asking me to submit the PROTIM report for year 6. The funny thing is the letter is dated 24 September 2010 and based on the letter we should conduct a PROTIM test from 26 - 28 September 2010 but it arrived at school on 29 September 2010. hahahaaa... very funny huh?! but for us, teachers; it's a very common thing and some would surely make a commotion about it or maybe directly lose temper and wat some of my 'kelik' would do is "barking to a tree". I'm not that kind of person, I would surely try to submit my report by hook or by crook(correct me if I'm wrong ;) hehehee) in any way as long as I do my job. there's no point talking and talking and causing too much noise any delaying the job. But when someone interfere my job, he better watch out! I respect his intention by reminding me about my job but "barking" at me like I don't know how to do my job and saying things behind my back is soooo not helping!! I do my job and I never delay it, so he better do his own and stop talking if it's not helping! I rather try to find the solution rather than "barking" like a stupid dog! Who does he think he is?!! He's not my super senior or what we called as Penolong Kanan! And he's not even my HEADMASTER!!! I'm not the kind of person who can't accept other people opinion but he's gone too far by complaining and complaining! I don't care who he is, I'm not afraid to fight back! Yes, I don't has a degree like he always bragging about when he was in J****n la..bla..blaa..blaa.. watever!! if he thinks he's perfect or a great person, TRY WALKING ON WATER! haiyaa... he really hasn't open his mind! such a waste for a people older than me, has walked thousands miles across this world to study but forgot that in this whole wide world created by GOD every single thing is unique in its own way and people has different ways on doing a same task! Shame on him! I will put him in an educated people with narrow minded and wasted education list.

4th day, I do my work one task to another. by taking turn. I don't want to burden my mind, my brain and my energy. I will do it, settle it one by one. I love myself and I don't want stress to win. The 'dog' still bark and this time I 'fed' him with thousands of explaination before he even get the chance to complain more!
While I was resting after a lot of none teaching task, we were surprised by a loud crying from a boy. Haiyaaa.... as usual, boys played,fought with each other and ended assaulting each other! the shouting from the teacher in-charge is sooo annoying! Thank GOD the scene ended sooner than we expected.

Curriculum meeting, hmm..it went well and smooth like we planned but when we are about to end it...suddenly... all the teachers who sat near the door went out and watched speechlessly!! we were kept on asking, "wat happened?!" "wat happened?!" but no answer! then suddenly the boy who had fought earlier ran inside the staffroom crying while holding his swell cheek.
He cried hysterically while saying he wanted to ask his dad to come to school ASAP! haiyaa... another commotion! the scene were ended by the teacher in charge and we ended our meeting.
While every one was preparing to leave, another commotion because of the parents of the boy came and said their unsatisfied opinion and chose to settle it with the boy outside the school compound. Well, I don't delay my plan to go home and rushed back.
The positive thing about what happened today is I managed to relax my mind for awhile and forget about my work loads that I should settle by tis week.

5th day, hmmm...what tomorrow lies aaa? heheheee.. I just pray, be patient and hope everything would be settled soon

Wat a drama week! Whew!!~~~~

It's never too late...

2010-09-28T15:20:00.002+08:00

I believe that GOD's timing is always right no matter what. People might thought it is late but I believe all GOD's creation is unique in its own way and differ in some aspects.

I'm beginning on something that I was asked or advised to do years ago. It's not forced by any one but I willingly do it. I'm happy GOD has moved me to do so. Okay, my furthering my study now. I know it sounds simple, common, not interesting but I'm happy that this small thing do enlighten my heart and mind. I'm appreciating and enjoying every single good thing that happened in my life. I'm sooo blessed and happy that I get the chance to feel happy at even a single or most people might think as "biasa-biasa".

I'm living my life to the fullest. Enjoying every bits of it because I know when the time comes I won't get the chance to enjoy it and it's no harm enjoying your own life you choose guided by your own creator. I believe in enjoying every moment of it because we never know when it will be taken from us because Every thing in this world is temporary and not for eternal.. Except love to GOD.

I'm amazed that in life people will have different goal even though they are doing the same thing. Last week, GOD purposely introduced me to a mother of three who will be my course mate for this semester. Both of us are furthering our study but with different goal.

Me, for my own achievement in education and also for promotion.

While this beautiful mother is going back to learning for her autism child. She wants to learn on how to understand, help and support her child. It's a struggle for her and her family in dealing her child because it's not easy to understand children with special needs. I'm touched! I felt sooo ashamed of my self and realised that in this whole wide world we need to think or care about others need also.

I wish her luck while reflecting on my own life...Learning from people around me.. Appreciating what GOD has given to all of us.

Raya is almost come to an end...

2010-09-28T15:06:00.003+08:00

After a month fasting...after detoxifying...I pig out myself with a lot of FOOD!! haiyaa it's soo damn tempting.

I thank the blessing of given the chance to taste all the delicious, marvelous kuih raya, lemang, rendang daging, kari ayam, dodol and many more...Ish...mentioning it makes me drooling for all that food again!!

This year all the cookies @ every house I visited are purely cookies made from HEEAaavveenn!! Maybe it's made with lots and lots of love ;)
Ni kuih Raya c Umi smuggled from seberang. hehehehee

This weekend there will be an invitation for my colleague's open house..c angku!! hehehee thanks for inviting! looking forward for it..

I would like to remember those who did not has enough food to eat, may there will always be some bread for them.

Kebaikan Puasa

2010-08-18T23:29:00.004+08:00

A few days before 'puasa' I googled to find ways on how to detox and why we should detox. My findings are meaningful and I made my mind to fast~ joining my Muslims cousins. After fasting for 2 days I came across a magazine stating the benefits of fasting and now, I would like to share it to all of you!! Hope you can love yourself and do something about it peeps! ;)

12 Kebaikan Berpuasa

Membantu menurunkan berat badan. Which is what I really need for now in order to keep fit and healthy!
Proses Detox paling mudah! This is what I've been searching for! I've read that a few symptoms that our body need to detox are irregular allergies or sickness and also fatique or low stamina.
Bantu Perbaiki Kesuburan Lelaki. Well, info for all men out there.
Diperakui oleh ahli falsafah terkenal seperti Socrates. They have been practising it since the ancient time!
Berpuasa beri kesan positif pada badan. It can improve your stamina, you will feel more relaxing, giving your digestion system time to rest, reduce aging process, improving your senses and creativity and also detoxifying which could lead to a positive attitude when the toxic is being reduce in our body.
Rasa lebih muda. Stabilising our metabolism and improving our immune system.
Lapar itu ubat terbaik. In real life situation, doctors would suggest us to control our eating habit and fast before giving any treatment.
Malas puasa, lemah otak. When we are full or our digestion system is working, our brain is not alert and functioning.
Puasa bantu buang racun perokok tegar. It's the detoxifying process also.
Bantu kurang kolestrol. Reducing our glucose level and also cholesterol.
Mahu jadi bijak? Research shown that fasting could improve our IQ.
Kuatkan Memori! When we are fasting, a hormone named 'opiodis' (to make us focus,calm, relax and improve productivity) is being release and this hormone is more effective when we are fasting.

So, my conclusion is...I will continue fasting even though I'm not a Muslim. It is not for Muslims only but also for those who want to improve their health.

Happy Fasting every one!
;)

Happy Friendship Day!!

2010-08-08T21:35:00.005+08:00

I think it's never too late to say HAPPY FRIENDSHIP DAy since it's still in d mood of it.

[having lunch+tea @ Nolda's place with Sainty & Christal]

"Each friend represents a world in us, a world possibly not born until they arrive, and it is only by this meeting that a new world is born."
- Anais Nin

[Sitting:Flo, Beth, Jess, Nol.
Standing: Weng, Karen, Me, Saint & Cyn. Not in the picture: Nik, Cherry]

"My friends are my estate."
- Emily Dickinson

"Every person is a new door to a different world."

- from movie "Six Degrees of Seperation" (thanks to Steve's Famous Quotes)

"A friend is someone who knows the song in your heart, and can sing it back to you when you have forgotten the words."

- Sent by Donna Roberts

I had another great weekend when my friend's brother had a wedding reception at our hometown, Keningau to be exact.

Well, all my friends were my schoolmates & even classmates since kindergarden! Yeah, it's sounds ridicules but that's the reality. Every one has grown to be in different fields but the friendship remains the same and even our bad habits haven't changed! heheheee...guys u know wat I mean. I didn't want to elaborate on that bcos that what makes our friendship lasts I guess.. the colours of every one of us..the blessing of knowing every single type of person GOD has created.
I'm blessed. Really blessed to have known U all.

I'm blessed that along my journey I meet a few new friends that as wonderful as those friends I have had. Dionysia, Ila@ Mariam Jamella, Umi Y not in the picture; WEndy Luke)

Well, haven't ask permission from Nik to publish the pictures of their mansion but I will do so.

The chandelier that shines for the stairs in the house. It's so attaractive and is a centre stage of the house.

Sainty and Nol are relaxing after having a great dinner out side. This is hall for the front porch,behind it is a living room.

I forced nolda to pose even though we weren't comfortable because a lot of people were staring at the magnificent mansion of Nik's parents.

Well, this is not the bride or newly-wed, ni pengantin lama ni ;) I like this angle where we could see the centre stage of the house which is this swirl stairs with English roses details and not only that all the decorations are English roses flowers only. It's like bringging the garden in the house.
It is said that all the siblings did contribute something on the interior & building the house.
By the way, Nik in her Arabian, Kaftan dress designed by Jovian Mandiage & make-up by Chomel. She looked stunning as if she's the bride but she's always down to earth with us her friends.

I hope all of you have a great friendship not only through friends but also family or maybe a stranger. GOD bless

People say love is important but I say oxygen is more importaNT <~ adpted from my cousin Nia @ Valerina's status in FB.

2010-06-24T19:58:00.004+08:00

Life is fascinating that you never know what lies ahead of you... You'll either find a sweet future or bitter future...

Hehehee..sorry the pic above reminds me of our pet when we were a kid. It's sooo cute but very shy that it always hide it face when any one look at it and I'm amazed that the tame version in the picture above is being set free at Rasa Ria Resort which is as far as I know is fierce.

Some people say it they would like to go back to their childhood time where there are no worries, responsibility and all you have to know is live your life to the fullest! Recently, I read my friend's status in FB and it is a great quote to ponder:
"If you make mistakes in your life it won't send you to HELL but choosing to stay or not moving on will surely send you to HELL"

This child above is at the stage of copying anything he sees and asks to do... But as we grow old, we would change and not imitate what we see, heard, read, sense or even smell and we tend to do it on our own way.

Is it the right decision?
Well, we are given the brain, experiences and many more source to analyze it.
But when we do a lot of thinking, discussions and research we'll end up being confused.
A lot of options are good but when the time comes to make the best decision without making the biggest mistake in our life, we'll end up being indecisive...

My advice is go back to your main aims in life, think about all the people around you and the most important thing is what you want the outcome to be.
But remember, we could only hope or plan and GOD is the decision maker. :D

Garang? huh?!!

2010-03-23T22:22:00.005+08:00

I always like kids as far I could remember. I watched my cousins and brothers grow from an infant to a toddler and soon to be an adult. Not only that, I get the credits by collecting all the knowledge on the-after-birth procedures for mothers or so-called 'pantang' from my granma.

Like cute & adorable Nowel, I watched him grow in front of my eyes and there were times I even babysit him for his night sleeps, well I mean slept wit him when he was a baby! I'm veryyyy fond of kids!! And I bet no one could doubt that with my smiley face. Heheheeee..(evil laugh)

When I became a teacher, it all was kept as only after work attitude or 'clothes'. I learnt to be strict and 'garang' from my experiences and for my class-control from many races or types of kids I had taught before.

I remember going to a course in IPKS last year and most of the teachers were smiling and gigling looking at me. Well, yes..I know, they are gossiping about me and they couldn't 'tahan' and blurted it out.

"Faye, ko di skul mesti students ko suka betul sama ko ka? teacher cute! mesti dorang gerammmm betul sama ko kan?"

I was soooo shocked & was not expecting that was in their mind!! Half laughing, I could only smile without given the chance that what they thought wasn't true except the last part; "dorang gerammmmmmm betul sama sa!"

In my school and even at my previous school, I'm soooo famous with the names as guru garang, guru penjahat, guru bikin takut but only in my class. Out side the classroom I'm just like their friends. I could gossiping with them and even I'm not 'that garang'.
Matter of fact, I'm still in touch with my pupils who are in secondary schools and surprisingly they even 'tegur' me if i bumped with them but I didn't notice due to their transformation from a kid to a teenager.

One of my unforgetable incident was 2 months ago...I was on my way to the toilet when I bumped with a group of boys in the evening session eating while walking, I smiled to them and trying to sounds friendly and asked them.

"Eee...sedap oo makanan kamu, jan makan sambil bejalan nanti jatuh. Duduk ba baru kamu makan."

Silence. Total silence but they continued walking and stop eating, hiding their food!
Yeah, I know..Maybe all of you might thought the boys 'takut makanan dorang kena rabut'! Heheheee...well, that's not the reason of their act.

After passing by them for almost 10 metres, I heard.
"Garang ba tu cikgu!! JAhat tu!! Sa pernah nampak dia mengajar..."

Showing and amused, I turn around to see who was talking and it's true. It was the group of pupils I talked to before!! HAiyaaa....small kids, they thought what they saw is the real thing! Yes I admit, there are times I lost my temper in my class but most of the time I do sounds 'garang' while explaining but I never deny

the pupils right to really get the knowledge they should get from me,
their right to get my explaination on what I taught to make them really understand about the topic,
their rights to explain themselves if they make mistakes (like why they didn't do their homework, why they calculation is different from what I taught and many more..)

I wasn't angry but I do find it hilarious!! HAhahahaaaa... I find it hilarious and I understand it's just a 7 to 8 years old of thinking... ;)
Well, the fact is I never taught any of the pupils that gave that bad remarks to me. :) I remember the saying, "NEVER JUDGE THE BOOK BY ITS COVER". All my pupils I taught know my principle and know that I am 'garang' so that they do learnt something.

Working life...

2010-03-10T22:47:00.005+08:00

It's been so long since my last post and even most of my friends even joked that I'm starting to lose my readers. Well, sorry guys; my bad. I would say this week is one of the most hectic week this year which we usually experience in the end year season but unfortunately this year it comes quiet too soon. My career has taken most of my time, which most people thought life as a teacher is great for working half day. In fact, we are also working like those people who works in an office.

Well, these are my working hours this week:

Monday ~ 7.10-12.30 pm teaching + checking books in between classes.
~ 12.45-1.45 pm Star buddies year 6 (Maths).
~ 2.00 pm lunch
~ 2.30-5.00 pm checking books + preparing for tomorrow lesson.

Tuesday ~ 7.10-12.30 pm teaching + checking books in between classes.
~ 1.00 pm lunch
~1.30-4.00 pm checking books + preparing for tomorrow lesson.
~ 4-5 pm nap
~ 6pm jogging

Wednesday ~ 7.10-11.30 am teaching + checking books in between classes.
~ 11.45-1.45 pm English PAnitia meeting.
~ 2.00 pm lunch
~ 2.30-6.00 pm checking books + preparing for tomorrow lesson.

Thursday ~ 7.10-11.30 am teaching + checking books in between classes.
~ 11.30-1.15 pm Maths Panitia meeting
~ 1.15-2.15 pm Star buddies year 6 (BI).
~ 2.30 pm nap
~ 3.30-6.00 pm checking books + preparing for tomorrow lesson.
Friday ~ 7.10-10.00 am teaching + checking books in between classes.
~ 10.00-12.oo pm Making the PROTIM reports.
~ 12-1 pm Nap
~ 2 pm HAnd- in the PROTIM reports to the PPD.

Well, now I don't know why I'm so exhausted and all out. Although it's already friday and next week would be 1st mid-term holiday, we are going to have Akademi UPSR for year 6. We are sacrificing all our energy, time and many more to educate and help our pupils but is it worth it? Let it be GOD's work to judge. We'll try our very best and if we fail we won't regret it because we had tried our best.

Well, just want to share a happy story. My student, Erna Melissa is the 1st runner up for Story Telling Competition for district level!! Thanks to Miss Phizulinah Phillip for training her since last year with the story and the gestures and body language... Credits goes to PIZU!! and also Erna for being brave and sporting! ;)

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Success is the sum of small efforts, repeated day in and day out.
Robert Collier

Talking about success, I don't want to brag but I'm happy that I've kicked my bad habits of buying "4d" or lottery number. It was a great hardwork moreover when it runs in the blood with a lot of winnigs plus an environment with those who often buy it! Whew! I'm happy that I'm not tied with the 'date line' to buy it. heheheee...

Nothing can stop the man with the right mental attitude from achieving his goal; nothing on earth can help the man with the wrong mental attitude.
Thomas Jefferson

It's all mind over matter... I'm starting a new habit now and I don't want to share it until I achive my goal... It's true that it's all in your mind, if you can control it, think positive, you will gain what you wish for.

The fact is, that to do anything in the world worth doing, we must not stand back shivering and thinking of the cold and danger, but jump in and scramble through as well as we can.
Robert Cushingh

Life isn't easy but it's worth enjoying and shouldn't be wasted with worries but as a human being, it's normal to worry and think a lot. It's better not to let the worries control our live and concentrate doing our important work.

|ife is about making decisions...

2010-01-09T11:57:00.003+08:00

sometimes it's better to stop, listen, wait and pray rather than 'jump into conlusion' because it won't solve the issues...

Because in this WHOLE WIDE WORLD that we shared, we have differences with other people even though we have the same blood type, language, race, colour of our hair, colour of our skin and many more similarities ~~ because we are unique in our own special way; the way our creator wanted us to be.

So, it's up to us to tolerate, respect, understand, accept the differences we all have or not.
Because our creator created all that differences to colour the life we all have rather than making it a boring life that we could guess what lies ahead of us...

So, it's your own decision to make. Either to make it a better world or making the 'WW 3' a reality...

HOME~~where my heart is ;)

2010-01-03T19:13:00.002+08:00

I'm staring out into the nite, trying to hide the pain

I'm going to the place where love

And feeling good don't ever cost a thing

And the pain you feel's the different kind of pain

Well, I'm going back, back to the place I belong,

And where your love has always been enough for me

I'm not running from, no, I think you got me all wrong

I don't regret this life I chose for me

But these places and these faces are getting old

So I'm going home, well I'm going home

The miles are getting longer, It seems, the closer I get to you

I've not always be the best man or friend for you

But your love it makes true and I don't know why

You always seem to give me another try

So, I'm going home, back to the place where I belong

And where your love has always been enough for me

I'm not running from, no, I think you got me all wrong

I don't regret this life I chose for me

But these places and these faces are getting old

Be careful what you wish for, cause you might just get it all

You might just get it all and then some you don't want

Be careful what you wish for, cause you might just get it all

You might just get it all, yeah

Oh, well I;m going home, back to the place where I belong

And where your love has always been enough for me

I'm not running from, no, I think you got me all wrong

I dont't regret this life I chose for me

But these places and these faces are getting old

I said these places and these faces are getting old

So, I'm going home, I'm going home

Time For Miracles

2009-12-15T16:58:00.002+08:00

It's late at night and I can't sleep
Missing you just runs too deep
Oh I can't breathe thinking of your smile

Every kiss I can't forget
This aching heart ain't broken yet
Oh God I wish I could make you see
Cuz I know this flame isn't dying
So nothing can stop me from trying

Baby you know that
Maybe it's time for miracles
Cuz I ain't giving up on love
You know that
Maybe it's time for miracles
Cuz I ain't giving up on love
No I ain't giving up on us

I just wanna be with you
Cuz living is so hard to do
When all I know is trapped inside your eyes

The future I cannot forget
This aching heart ain't broken yet
Oh God I wish I could make you see
Cuz I know this flame isn't dying
So nothing can stop me from trying

Baby you know that
Maybe it's time for miracles
Cuz I ain't giving up on love
You know that
Maybe it's time for miracles
Cuz I ain't giving up on love
No I ain't giving up on us

Baby can you feel it (feel it)
You know I can hear it (hear it)
So can you feel me feel you....

You know it's time....

Baby you know that
Maybe it's time for miracles
Cuz I ain't giving up on love
You know that
Maybe it's time for miracles
Cuz I ain't giving up on love

You know I ain't giving up on us
You know I ain't giving up on
Oh I ain't giving up on us

adam lambert

Life? Is it?~~

2009-12-15T16:45:00.003+08:00

As human, we tend to worry and trying to get the things we don't have rather than appreciating on all the things we have~all the blessings~~~ have a nice day every one

FAITH
is the fruit with a pleasant smell,
Inspiring somebody to win,
and the pillar of strength for those who failed.
JMK

All I have...well you know it's yours....

2009-11-26T23:46:00.001+08:00

Here we go at it three years later
Will you help me to dream it all up again
Tired of the same song everyone’s singing
Rather be lost with you instead

Don’t you come around here
Come around here anymore
Dragging my fears
Dragging my fears
Out the door
All I have
All I have
All I have
Well you know it’s yours
Every breathe
Every step
Every moment
I’m looking for
All I have
All I have
All I have
Is yours
And you watch my heart break a little bit more
My heart break a little bit more

Is it cold yet in New York City?
‘Round here the trees been blowing off bare
Everyone’s talking about change on the airwaves
I still got you on my breathe

Don’t you come around here
Come around here anymore
Dragging my fears
Dragging my fears
Out the door
All I have
All I have
All I have
Well you know it’s yours
Every breathe
Every step
Every moment
I’m looking for
All I have
All I have
All I have
Is yours
And you watch my heart break a little bit more
My heart break a little bit more

Oh I still trying to do my hardest
Pick us all up from the fall oh
Off the little corner of the darkness
Just a crack the light in the middle of it all

All I have
All I have
All I have
Well you know it’s yours
Every breathe
Every step
Every moment
I’m looking for
All I have
All I have
All I have
Is yours
And you watch my heart break a little bit more
My heart break a little bit more
My heart break a little bit more
Watching my heart break a little bit more
My heart break a little bit more

My heart break a little bit more

~ Mat Kearney ~

What Is Your security in life?~~ ;>

2009-11-26T23:41:00.004+08:00

Well, it's a common question nowadays. Some people will say ASB (for Malaysians), TRUST FUNDS, INSURANCES, HOUSES FOR RENT, LAND and many more investments which are growing more and more in this modern era.

Well for me, this is what I hold on to... I surrender my all to you, o' Lord..

One True God ~~ Mark Harris

He's the Lord of all the earth
The maker of all things
He alone is the one true God
Kingdoms rise and fall
But even through it all
He remains
The one true God

I don't have a thing that I got on my own
I don't have a care that I carry alone
But I have a God who's carrying me
I don't have sin that He doesn't forgive
And I don't have a heart that is worthy of His
But I have a God who still loves me
So I don't need a temporary man made deity
When I got the real thing
I got the real thing

Lord of all the earth
The maker of all things
He alone is the one true God
Kingdoms rise and fall
But even through it all
He remains
The one true God

~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

I know in this modern life some people might find it ridicules, insane or maybe an excuse by a 'lazy grasshopper' (remember the old tales about the grasshopper and the ants?). You can say watever you want, it's an individual opinion which can't be argued or opposed because there is no accurate answer for this issue and there is no correct answer. It all depends on the individuals aims in life. What you put as the center of your life, what is your aim in life, what you want to accomplish in life and the list goes on..

Why is it so? There are many reasons that mould a person and effect what his or her aims or missions in life. Some of the factors that caused these situations are what one's experienced in life, what they get from their readings, observations and many more...

  Some people might find this so naive or maybe close-minded or unambitious or 'the frog under the coconut shell' or conservative but that's my own choice and I have my own reason for my principle which I know is my own responsibility. I'm not the kind of person who couldn't accept other people opinions but for now, this is what my intuition tells me...   ;> 

I surrender my all to GOD... I have my firm reason.
My beloved late hubby and I were trying hard to conceive and did many things because we believe the verse "knock and it will be open, ask and it will be given to you". But what GOD has allotted for us is not to have any child even though we tried to change our fate.
We thought we would start a life like any couples when I after a long wait and a lot of energy and sacrifices were made;got transfered to Ranau but it turned out to be an unending obstacle in life when my beloved late hubby was called to rest in GOD's home.

Well, it seems just a simple matter or small for some people but it is actually not the experiences any one would like to have and it's soo hard, excruciating and at times unbearable...

Call me a chicken or a coward but hey, HE is our creator and HE has the full power of what HE wanted it to happen. No one can deny or argue with HIS will! Like it or not, HE's the creator... We look up to HIM and follow HIS rules not HIM to be our slave..

It's always start with 'a' .....

2009-11-03T21:19:00.004+08:00

This morning when every one was busy checking papers, keying marks and other tasks, I happen to realise that a small gestures or may be a word could change a lot. Like today, we were suppose to be having our annually School Sports Day but since of the tight time frame and having a few big events for the school for 2 consecutive weeks has given a big impact not only to the pupils performance in study but also in their health~what I mean is most of the pupils are quiet tired with Pertandingan Kawad Kaki and then Year End Exam+ practising for SSD.

I said, we owe the credits to Mr. Lansu for being brave to present the motion on postponing the SSD today last week on the final meeting for SSD. With all the work loads we are having today is more than enough to make all of us quiet busy and we aren't doing any for SSD yet!

......................................................................................................................................................................................

Every one start with their first step before they learn to walk. When I felt like I'm 'climbing' or may be I should use the term 'trying to move on', I felt something made me stumble. There are always obstacles coming my way. Well, that's how life can be sometimes...

Well, I'm not in the position where I'm happy with 'wat I'm doing' (not regarding my job) but this is wat I want to do and I have faith that GOD wants me to make a drastic decision which is totally not me! And it's hard when you are making decisions which doesn't reflect your true colours but, hey! I learn that I can never please every one! (Like umi always said, "bionic woman ke?") And it'snot my purpose in life! I'm here to please my creator, our GOD by reflecting HIS teaching and love to the world tho' most of the time I'm not doing my job or my purpose in life.

But it doesn't mean I have to please them and forgetting myself, right?? Frankly, I'm not really sure because from Fr. Stans's seminar that day; I learnt that Forget About Me I Love You (FAMILY). We are suppose to serve others like JESUS not hoping for people to serve you...

Lord, lately it's hard for me to make decisions. But I know you are always there for me. HElp me Lord to pause, wait and listen to wat u got to say rather than rushing and forcing you to speak out loud...but most of all, help me to make the decisions that is not for my own glory only but for the glory of your name, amen...

LEarn to say ENOUGH!!!!!

2009-10-27T23:24:00.003+08:00

Belajar untuk mengatakan CUKUP!!!
(click the link above, enjoy the video)

It's funny, meaningful and it kinda sounds like me... :>
Just want to share that it's our human nature of not satisfied with what we own.

We tend to work hard for all the things we taught we really want. But always the things we want isn't the things we need.

Whew!! My new big task starting today is learning to say ENOUGH!!! It's soooo hard!!!
Gosh!! hopefully I'll reach this goal before I own the whole shoes & bags in this world!!

Things..here and there

2009-10-24T09:25:00.003+08:00

Mat rempit versi baby.. Happy if dapat naik motor abg Carl.

Nowen enjoying his soto.

The naughty boy, Nowel with his lovely mum.

Jadi model kraftangan skejap. Heheheee... I'm so amazed & impressed with the creativity of the carpenter who crafted this basket.

Other than as a multi purpose basket, u can use it as a 'sasaban' heheheheee.. nda ba. This is how it looks like when u just want to put it in the drawer.

Athira and Nowel during "Akademi UPSR"

Rest In Peace, Yung...take k, we'll always pray for you..
Send our hugs, kisses & love to my bleoved late huby..

Muka bikin kesian yg jajal sbenarnya.

Dei, buat muka cute!!

Anyone interested to buy??!!

2009-10-22T11:53:00.004+08:00

ISUZU INVADER TFR 2.8 TURBO DIESEL. 2001. Low mileage, RM42k negotiable. Contact;0198001773

You tell me!!

2009-10-20T22:42:00.003+08:00

1. A few pupils ransackd rubbish& spread it in d clasrm &fill d class with bad smell.

2. A few pupils bullied a boy. passing his bag,making him like a monkey.

3. A boy eating lollipop while his teacher is giving advices. Without any sense of guilty.

4. A boy answered his teacher without menace. Thinking he's great.

5. A boy hit his fren who is taller than him. Causing his fren pain at his arm.

6. 2 boys showed their teacher their buts wit d intention 2 provoke their teacher.

It all happened today...

I wonder why teachers are getting less and less power to discipline the pupils...

And us, as teacher...

ARE NOT SUPPOSED TO:
1. SHOW ANGER.

2. CANE OR DO ANY PHYSICAL ACTION THAT CAUSED PAIN.

3. SMILE AND SHOW AFFECTION EVEN THO' IN ANGER (INGAT APA, KAMI NI 'SARAH CONNOR' PUNYA CYBORG??!!)

4. PUNISH IN ANY FORM.

5. HUMILIATE PUPILS.

6. and the list goes on... bla..bla...

we tried many methods in order to discipline them but sometimes the boundaries built aren't helping...we cracked our head to be the most creative teacher in TEACHING, DOCUMENTING, COACHING, DISCIPLINING, ADVISING, HELPING...

HOW CAN US DISCIPLINE THEM?? YOU TELL ME..

seperti yang kau ingini...

2009-10-20T19:26:00.004+08:00

SePeRtI yang kau ingini... Fr. Ronnie Alfred Luni

Bukan dengan barang fana
...................................................
Bukan dengan emas perak
Oleh segenap kasih dan pengorbanan Mu

Ku telah mati dan tinggalkan..
Cara hidup ku yang lama
Semuanya sia-sia dan bererti lagi...

Hidup ini ku letakkan pada mezbahMu, ya Tuhan
Jadilah pada ku seperti yang Kau inginkan

All the gold, diamonds, silvers in the world
All the entertainments, all the activities
Couldn't fulfill the hunger..

BUT
we kept on searching for 'it'
Although we DO know it won't make us whole
Although we know it's a sin
Although we know

It's not wat we want
It's not the happiness we seek for
It's not the satisfaction we want
and most of all
It's not wat our creator wants us to do..

BUT
It's hard to maintain it
The temptation is soo great ('kunun')
But the truth is GOD knows our limits
and
HE will never go beyond our limits
It's just our nature as human
to give excuses...
let ourselves fall...
let our self drift apart...
let ourselves drown...
waiting for our creator to come down
and save us!

Without opening our eyes and denying that
He does listens..

We ignore
to all the help HE sent
to all people @ angels HE gave us
to all the signs HE showed
to all the voices we heard
to all the touch we felt
and most of all
to all the love HE shown to us!

Let us reflect ourselves
(it's the advice 4 myself also ;>)
Take the action, move forward,
pause whenever we need time,
crawl when it's so 'heavy' and hard,
lean when you are tired
but never STOP
to fight and work for the after life...

IsaiahEzra.JeFFFaye.Raydoza

While I'm waiting...

2009-10-16T23:06:00.002+08:00

I'm waiting on you , Lord...Though it's not easy...

enjoy it, frens...
Have faith, the sky is the limit.... <---Actually this advice is meant for my own self ;)

Just Want to Share Fr.Erik's Post

2009-10-08T10:13:00.002+08:00

Life is a Miracle!

Sunday, October 4, 2009 at 9:03pm

Life itself is a miracle. Everything in life is a miracle; each and ever things we see, smell, touch, hear, and taste are miracles. This includes all our experiences in life: joy, laughter, happiness, success, pain, failure, etc....and even death is a miracle! Because it leads us into another kind of life that is beyond this earth. So...there is no need to ask for Extra or Special miracle. Because life is full of miracles! Just enjoy all those miracles which are very part of our life. We only need to be grateful to our Creator, God who gives us LIFE free of charge! Free of meter and No monthly Bill! What a wonderful life! It is free and it's YOURS. What a GIFT!

This reminds me the most inspiring words of Albert Einstein who says,"There are only two ways of living, One is nothing is a miracle, the second is everything is a miracle, I believe in the latter."
So...let us be happy and enjoy it. Don't worry too much...for life is a mircale. "Thank You, Lord.Amen!"

Crushed but not Condemned

2009-09-27T22:59:00.002+08:00

GOD

I'm being pressed from all sides,
They tried to crush me,
But I know it's only 'mountains',
Mountains that blocking my way.
And you will never leave me,
Although I have to suffer.
Because YOU have said that through trials and suffering,
We will learn to love and YOU always showed YOUR unconditional love during that time.

GOD
You have said that a faith as big as a mustard seed can move a mountain.
But GOD, this mountain is sooo BIG & enormous for me!

HELP ME Lord..

You gave messages through the people in my life.
Thank you LORD and bless them..
They have been my 'backbones'

I know GOD,
As humans; we have to suffer to know the meaning
of love..

I know that,

Life is a path that constantly demands our renew effort to always make a new beginning..

Well, each & every one of us have a story to tell..

Food to my soul....

2009-09-11T09:32:00.006+08:00

My favourite activity is reading but because of my bad time management but it never kill my passion to read.

heheheeee.. these are some of my books I bought but a few of them I already read.

Mmmm.. The Mvdoulus is tempting with a lot of varietes and the affordable prices but I couldn't get the chance and there would always be something that came across my path..

WHAT MEN WOULDN'T UNDERSTAND ABOUT WOMEN
heheheeee... ;p

Still alive & kicking!!!

2009-09-10T03:15:00.005+08:00

I know it's already 'bangas' but wat to do, I've been eager to blog about tis but because of my bad time management, I spent most of my time with work + frens + family + work..
So, these are some activities that I've been doing...

Watched 'The Proposal' with my 2 under age cousins and very silly of me not realising that this movie has been clasified as 18 but luckily to our FINAS systems it has been censored.
I was expecting it to be a mushy-mushy romantic movie but it turned out to be a blast & awesome movie!
I considered it as a must-watch movie to my frenz because it didn't only made my day as a lady but also a great movie for my teenage cousins!

At first it was really hilarious and we were laughing our head out but I wasn't prepared for the 'sensitive' part regarding family. A great movie for all age group I guess.

The next movie is 'Up', I was expecting it to be more hilarious & kicking than 'The Proposal' but it end up to be more serious than 'The Proposal' and even my cousin Nea said it was boring.
But Jess really like it, mmm every one has their own reasons. For me, it's a sad movie with cartoons to make it entertaining and it has a lot of moral values.

Yep! It's mango season I guess. My pupils gave this enormous mangoes to me and I was really delighted because my granny's mango tree had long been chopped down. I'm blessed!! Another great day even tho' some of them are getting naughtier.

Our team which was 'ordered' to do work which wasn't our business. These are the men showing their skills after the women did the first first step of the work.

Well, it's normal in real world when some people tried to manipulate others but let them smiled and felt happy even tho' we were really pissed and annoyed because we know that GOD has a better plan for us.
Chiao! Chiao!! to everyone who always do the work assigned with commitment & effectively!

Regardless of our bzness for 'Akademi UPSR' through out school holiday last August, I managed to sacrifice my Family gathering cum bday party to join the 'BGR Conference/Camp'.
It was a blast for me & every one in the Lifeline group. We are looking forward for next year.

This pic is courtesy of Tity who is being sooo creative and Ty thanx for all those wonderful pictures of us!!

"Keningau Upperstar" kunun we called it, it was opened end of last month. The food is just ok since there are not many choices of 'Halal' western food in keningau but the service is soooo lame!!

"The Forgiven Sins"

Is it forgiven, GOD?!! hehehee

Nice, eh??!! I'm sooo vulnerable with shoes & handbags nowadays..Mmmmm.. I wonder where this influence comes from a? Maybe c Yus? Or maybe c Doni? Or maybe my beloved late mum's gene? Or maybe because I'm a woman!! hahaaa.. Sowt c faye~ Jess's tagline.

Well, these were my purchase but there are some after this but I'm not proud to blog about it because even these 3 only one of them I used more than once... Mmmmm need to do a lot of reflection and strengthen my self-control la ni!

"Sleeping Beauty"

I really like this one because it is sooo unique and more over I'm the kind of person who likes to lay down in the living room either watching TV or just reading & chit chatting.. I wonder, bila la sampai tis design to Keningau, a?

I like this one also because easier to clean and it makes the room spacious. I've been 'craving' for this kind of bed since childhood when I saw it in a western movie. Still, bila la mau sampai d keningau a?

This one is kinda unique but not for me! Macam baby yang minta kena ayun saja ni! heheheee but it actually reminds me of rocking chair. ;p

Have a great day every one... need my sleeeping beauty!!

Esok masih ada??

2009-08-10T15:29:00.000+08:00

Secara jujur persoalan ini sukar sekali untuk dijawap. Tetapi apa yang pasti ialah hari esok pasti datang meskipun kita mungkin tidak ada untuk menyambutnya. Jadi, saudara dan saudari, marilah kita membuat apa yang kita boleh dan mampu buat pada hari ini supaya seandainya kita tidak sempat melihat "kebangkitan sinaran matahari pada hari esok sekurang-kurang kita sudah menyiapkan apa yang perlu kita lakukan sebelum meninggalkan dunia ini. Amin.

The Belated Hari Guru Peringkat Ranau

2009-08-04T12:14:00.005+08:00

Talking about Teacher's Day, just want to share my pupils who wrote my name in his exercise book. My new name, huh?? "Prodsa?" hahahahahahaaaa... wat a joke. I'm wearing name tag sudah pun, boleh salah spell... Ni la klu x pandai dengar klu kena ajar dan tidak mau ambil perhatian.

The Sk. Pekan 2 Ranau teachers with me.
L ~ R ( Mdm. Feldah Malik, Mdm. Sainaba Yusof, Me,
Mdm. Nurliah Ag. Tengah ~ the headmsitress, Mdm. Masni ~ the Penolong Kanan 1, Mdm. Saliha, I forgot his name but I know he is one of the PKs, Mr. Along, Mr. Yulim Kinsui.)abbe

~Picture grabbed from Mr. Along de great's blog~

Wrong spelling in a certificate??

I could not control myself when I went to receive the award on stage, I could not say anything. I simply receive it though it's painful.

When I went to the toilet, I bumped with my x-class teacher Mdm. Rafidah Hassan who I never met for years. We had a long chat and shared the bitter infos. The thing being a teacher is you always get the chance to meet all your ex-teachers. It's good though but sometimes it does bring back bitter memories..

'May GOD gives him eternal rest and let us pray for his soul' was my aunt's sms.
"Terima ja, kak. Abg tau juga tu.." Sms from my SIL..

Please GOD, we beg you. Let him rest in peace in your kingdom ~ in HEAVEN. Amen.

what the h@#$k?!!

2009-07-31T17:05:00.002+08:00

Just want to share another incidents of my teaching life....

"Cikgu, si A & si E betumbuk!!"
I could hear sounds of tables and chairs being dragged and slammed when I put my foot on the 1st steps. The sounds really pissed me, it's like a war in my class!!!!!
"Yang berlari2 bekumpul di sana!" I shouted my lungs out.

Aftter giving my dearest 'hugs' to those who ran here & there, I interviewed the 2 boys on their arguments.
"Macamana sa tidak tumbuk dia teacher, dia mau kasi masuk dia punya ten***** di dalam lubang p***** sa" said A mau menangis...

Automatically I slowed down my giant voice and felt weak.
"Kenapa? apa dia buat?"
So A told me the whole story....

"Sini ko E, sepa ajar ko buat begitu?"
"Si Lewis selalu buat sa begitu. kalau sa lari kana bubut trus kana kasi masuk"
"Ok, tunggu kejap a..karang ko ikut teacher" I gave the other students work and brought E to the teacher-on-duty.

"Ok, cerita lagi.." I said in my most loving, weak and soft voice.
"Si Lewis bawa kami tengok CD biep, kami tinguk ramai2"
"Sepa punya CD?Di mana kamu jumpa?"
"Aki sa punya. kadang2 kami p sungai dorang si Lewis buat sama kami"
"Tiap2 ari ka kamu buat?"
"Tidak, kadang2 saja. semalam kami cakap kutur saja"

I just couldn't believe what I heard!!!! OMG!!! OMG!!!!

So, I reported everything to the teachers-in-charge and asked helped from my colleague to dig everything and settle the matter.

Now, the investigation still going on...

another great weekends ;)

2009-07-26T21:29:00.005+08:00

She was lost but now am found...

Wakakakakak.. macam cerita lost and found.
Presenting all of you;

NOLDA GWENDOLYN STEPHENS

Hahahahaaa...one of my favourite. which one is mine??!!

Keboringan ba ni tunggu c Nol di Pizza Hut, City Mall.

Joining also my under age cousins; Nia a.k.a Valerina & Velvet.

Me, Nol & Beth while waiting for Sainty to come back after picking Ah May.

Macam di lounge Pub ja kan, padahal di Starbucks 1B, C beth punya Cam la ni tlmpau banyak features. Moreover ajaran & jangkitan c Reggie la tu. ;)

Nol, me and Saint.

Sorry a saint, biasa la if with beth for sure bgambar ja ni. lol

Hopefully next gathering @ hang out @ jalan2 @ gossiping time @ coffee talk @ mengumpat session adalah si...

~ Jess

~ Karen

~ Weng

~ Flo

~ Nik nadzrinasha

(all absent with reasons hahahaa... macam meeting minute ni kunun)

dua alam....

2009-07-22T15:27:00.005+08:00

"Aik, tiada ka orang mau gambar sa ni??!!! First time ni sa menulis di whiteboard depan." Said Francis breaking the silence. First time kunun dia tulis anouncement di depan staffroom, Dei! minta puji kan.

Madam Anhancy were busy planning and preparing for her lesson for the evening session. She's our Head Panel for English who also sacrificed her time, energy and everything just to make sure the pupils in our school received the education they should have.

Today, she and her husband Mr. Junigo would leave school at 5.30 p.m. and they came this morning at 7.00 a.m.!! What a tiring job for both of them and also all of us!

Mr. Junigo for her English class in Year 1 Harapan, trying hard to make sure every pupils learn something instead of their ignorance to write anything.

Ustaz Haziq giving his final speech before adjourning our KOKUM activity
this evening at 2.00 p.m.

Adui gia Mat Zin, ondu ba, kesiannya... Tak kan putera lilin?? khekhekhekheee...

NOWELL'S WENT SHOPPING

mmmm.... Is this chips enough for us (erma, cheche & me)???!!!! What else to buy a?? *scratch* *scratch*

mmmm.... sedap ni, klu mumy guring! mana satu mau pilih a???!! mana yang mumy biasa bili ni a???!!! Eeeee... susah o mau pilih ni.

IS THIS TRUE??!!

2009-07-21T14:56:00.000+08:00

Hello,
Got this from a friend. Anyone can verify its credibility?

Hi,

Please be more cautious as the warnings has been given.

I just received this message from my friend. I don't know the source of the message; I also don't know the credibility of the content, but just beware.

Below is the content on the message:

"Hello there. I just wanted 2 let you know that please stay away from the beaches all around in the month of July. There is a prediction that there will be another tsunami hitting on July 22^nd. It is also when there will be sun eclipse. Predicted that it is going 2 be really bad and countries like Malaysia (Sabah & Sarawak), Singapore, Maldives, Australia, Mauritius, Si Lanka, India, Indonesia, Philippines are going 2 be badly hit. Please try and stay away from the beaches in July. Better 2 be safe than sorry. Please pass the word around. Please also pray for all beings."

Thanks and have a nice day.

Bless you~

Mirror?

2009-07-21T11:56:00.005+08:00

Yesterday was the "Science and Mathematics Week" closing ceremony and it was in deed a good weather. Everyone seems in their best mood since it was after weekends holiday.

After the "Sabahku" song, one of our pupils ran like a bolt of thunder towards her class. We were astonished and some teachers even said that they already sensed something amiss earlier before the school bell rang.

Being one of the teachers-in-duty for this week I felt pity for that girl. So, I followed to her class and approached her. I was afraid she would run but instead she just looked at me.

I hugged her and asked her to cry her heart out. Slowly I asked her and asked a few questions. So she told me while weeping hysterically. I stared at her, speechless and whenever I tried to say anything to comfort her, I cried and unable to speak.

What made me speechless and cried was I could see myself in her, I felt like looking at myself 15 years ago. All my words of wisdom disappeared and what I wanted to say seems like me consoling my own self. " Just pray and concentrate with your study" was the only words that came out from my mouth instead with tears. "Sorry teacher.. Sorry kalau saya buat teacher..." "No, it's ok." I said. Looking back what had happened made me laugh, she consoled me instead of me consoling her!!~~

Well, usually the children became the victim in a marriage or family crisis. Whether the parents tried hard not to hurt the children, any separation or crisis or arguments in the family do hurt the children in any aspects directly or indirectly.

That is life... Like it or not, our life is like a wheel. There will be time we are at the below point and there is also time to be in the above point. The experiences are meant to build patience, making us wiser in decision making and won't make us stumble and fall whenever it strikes again.

I don't regret what I had been through and I do treasure it.. I do learn something. I thank GOD for every childhood memories I had whether it was sweet or bitter. Through it all, I'm trying to rise whenever I fall though it's sooo damn hard and painful.

What we can do is tell the children, the pain will be over and it is actually to prepare them for their future and what lies ahead of them. They also have to believe in GOD and pray.

Cause everything happen for a reason but we don't know why for the time being and what good it will bring us because we have a creator who knows what HE is doing.

So believe in GOD, HE is always good even though our world falls apart.

what a bad day

2009-07-14T20:30:00.002+08:00

The evil you planned to do me has by God's design been turned to good, to bring about the present result; the survival of numerous people." Joseph now understood exactly why it all had to happen. I truly believe, it's only with GOD in him that he was able to say those words.

Those words are no human words. That is what can happen when we allow GOD's love to fill us. We can no longer hate and resent. As for his brother's they were so doubtful over Joseph's mercy for them. The question "What if" pops up. And so many times i also ask "what if GOD punishes me for what i have done?" Sometimes GOD's mercy and love is so deep, that it becomes hard for us to understand why we deserve it after all the sins we have done. But that IS indeed the love of GOD. it is unending, and it is unconditional. Only GOD can love like that and we must allow that to sink into our hearts. Know in your heart and soul, GOD loves you so, so, so, so, so much.....Jesus, in the Gospel speaks to his beloved disciples. In the Gospel, Jesus mentioned twice "do not be afraid" (vs 26 & 31).

How much more reassurance can we get? "Why, every hair on your head has been counted". For us, even in school we learn that we cannot count the hair on our head, because it is countless. But GOD... HE knows exactly the number of hairs on our head. Because HE designed and made us. HE put that much of effort into each of us, you and me. With all my heart and soul, i must say, i am touched and flattered, that someone would put that much effort in me. GOD is no human; that we must know. So HE can do everything that man cannot do. There are no boundaries for HIM.Again, JESUS asks for us to fix our eyes on the ultimate prize. "So if anyone declares himself for me in the presence of human beings, i will declare myself for him in the presence of my Father in heaven" That's the promise HE gave. O well, i guess you and i would know, how hard it is to declare in front of others the name of JESUS CHRIST. We're not talking about declaring in front of those who already know HIM, but those who do not. Hard huh? Yeah... But, that's why it's so, so important to fix our eyes on the prize at the end of the day. It is GOD's recognition that matters so, so much more than anything!

Then JESUS ended by sending, "Anyone who does not take his cross and follow my footsteps is not worthy of me". Big challenge, yea? yeap, it is.. Following the footsteps of JESUS CHRIST? In what way and what did HE do? In every way... and HE did not just carry HIS cross; HE embraced HIS cross. It means HE did it with passion and love.. No complaints. We all know, it's no joke, that cross HE carried.. Now HE asks us to do the same. And yes, it is not a great feeling. But that is the call for us, Christians. When people spit and call us names, forgive them. When people crucify our hearts, forgive them from the heart... Whoaa.... am i able to do that? NO... but YES, if GOD's love comes within me.... So let's allow HIS love to fill our hearts, souls and beings .... Have a great day! GOD loves you, so do i! God bless!

It only causes more anguish and more suffering to one. But when we already come to a stage like this, so deeply saddened and angered, we come to a point where we need to decide; to run away from it, or to face it, by forgiving those who have wronged us. When someone wrongs me, I feel angered and battered too. That’s the time when I feel like I want the world to know my anger and my resentment! But I realize this; every single time I do that, I make people flee away from me, and I damage myself more and more. So it really is no good. =)

In this case, Joseph decided on the latter; to forgive. Immediately as we can see, there was a certain relief in him, and he could say the right words to his brothers. After he disclosed himself to his brothers, and decided to forgive, he was awoken to see God’s plan and knew exactly what he had to do, and why all the suffering had to take place before. “I am your brother, Joseph whom you sold into Egypt. But now, do not grieve, do not reproach yourselves for having sold me here, since God sent me before you to preserve your lives.”

To me, this seems as if, GOD cleared away the “scales” in his eyes, and enable him to see the plans that HE has for him. We see a sudden change, Joseph became so comforting, and he only knew what was most important at that point; to fulfill GOD’s plans for him, and to eliminate his feelings of pride and the ego in him. That’s exactly what struck me. How many times my ego and pride became the “scale” that covered my eyes to see GOD’s plans for me. I was blinded by all of it and full of myself. All I had to do was just let go of my resentment and allow GOD to do the rest. I have been through that and it feels awesome! It’s true GOD’s plans and reasons make a lot of sense to me after that. I understood. =)Response to the Psalm of the day today goes “Remember the wonders the LORD has done”. Have you seen the LORD working wonders in your life? I am sure everyone has. The sun that rises in the morning, the birds that chirp and sing in the morning, my family who loves me for who I am, the home that I live in, all of it are wonders to me! I mean, yeah, it’s nothing uncommon. But it becomes a problem when I think it’s common. Just cause, everything becomes so common and I will begin to expect GOD’s wonders to be like a Mercedes Benz or a sum of RM 1k appearing in front of me! I will be so wrong then. Hehe. Everything I have now, is a wonder from the hands of GOD. =)

I see people suffering everyday and living on nothing but scraps on the streets, I realize I have more than enough!!!! So it is indeed GOD’s wonders. =) Jesus once again commissioned his disciples, to go out, proclaiming the Good News. “You received without charge, give without charge”. My heart took it in a way JESUS, is literally asking us, to imitate in HIS being. To do unto others, what HE has done for us. Not just to receive all the blessings and love from HIM, but to bless and love others as HE has done to me. we are all called to be imitators of Jesus.

To bless; (macam yg c Val cakap tadi pg ja ni) to give those who are in need and to bless them in every way we can. To love; how did Jesus love me? By laying down HIS own life for me. so therefore, if I were to imitate in HIS being, I must learn to lay down my life for those I love. Extreme love, is what I call it. =) that’s the call at the heart of every believer in Christ. To love, EXTREMELY.. Not only that, JESUS commissioned us. But we need to start right now. Not tomorrow, or next week, but TODAY. “And as you go, proclaim that the Kingdom of GOD is close at hand.” Who knows how close is close? Only GOD. That’s why we can’t afford to be a slacker in this. It starts today!Have a great day, friends!

that post I copied from GOD spoke To Me 2day! in FB. It really strike me!!!

Wow, GOD really knows that I'm in anger, GREAT ANGER to be eact... I was sooo pissed with sone colleague who did not care about their work that sometimes disturbs our work (well, only some of my colleague knows)

I was sooooo MEAN today that I even showed my anger to the person I was mad at!!!! No one would ever imagined what I did!!

~ I said that I would throw the persons' pupils' work because she didn't arrange it nicely and made a mess at the table we shared without realising she was around!

~ I purposely said out-loud in the staffroom "ba kalau ada kelas tu pandai2 la masuk kelas. ingat2 la masa sendiri. tau la kami ni 'sikit masa'. ba guru BI pandai2 la masuk klas"

What I said really made some colleague supported what I said & said "kalau orang lain sudah berkorban, yang lain pandai2 la ba masuk kelas. padahal kalau semua masuk kelas tidak payah pun ada guru pagi p petang"

Reflecting what I did today did not make me proud but ashamed with all my bad words, actions & thoughts!!!!

I know that GOD purposely sent me this BIG CROSS, just to test my patience but I simply blowed this test and let myself fall to satan!

GOD please forgive my bad words, bless the people who said bad things to us because I know they didn't realise that their words hurt our feeling.Help me to control my anger & not simply re-act to anything bad that make me angry or mad.Amen.

NEXT time, I'll try to control myself... GOSH, that's a promise!

the cost of a miracle

2009-07-11T18:52:00.000+08:00

Tess was a precocious eight-year-old when she heard her Mom and Dad talking about her little brother, Andrew. All she knew was that he was very sick and they were completely out of money. They were moving to an apartment complex next month because Daddy didn't have the money for the doctor's bills and our house. Only a very costly surgery could save him now and it was looking like there was no one to loan them the money. She heard Daddy say to her tearful Mother with whispered desperation, "Only a miracle can save him now."

Tess went to her bedroom and pulled a glass jelly jar from its hiding place in the closet. She poured all the change out on the floor and counted it carefully. Three times, even. The total had to be exactly perfect. No chance here for mistakes. Carefully placing the coins back in the jar and twisting on the cap, she slipped out the back door and made her way 6 blocks to Rexall's Drug Store with the big red Indian Chief sign above the door.

She waited patiently for the pharmacist to give her some attention but he was too busy at this moment. Tess twisted her feet to make a scuffing noise. Nothing. She cleared her throat with the most disgusting sound she could muster. No good. Finally she took a quarter from her jar and banged it on the glass counter.

That did it! "And what do you want?", the pharmacist asked in an annoyed tone of voice, "I'm talking to my brother from Chicago whom I haven't seen in ages.", he said without waiting for a reply to his question.

"Well, I want to talk to you about my brother.", Tess answered back in the same annoyed tone.

"He's really, really sick and I want to buy a miracle."

"I beg your pardon?" said the pharmacist.

"His name is Andrew and he has something bad growing inside his head and my Daddy says only a miracle can save him now. So how much does a miracle cost?"

"We don't sell miracles here, little girl. I'm sorry but I can't help you, the pharmacist said, softening a little.

"Listen, I have the money to pay for it. If it isn't enough, I will get the rest. Just tell me how much it costs."

The pharmacist's brother was a well dressed man. He stooped down and asked the little girl, "What kind of a miracle does you brother need?"

"I don't know," Tess replied with her eyes welling up. "I just know he's really sick and Mommy says he needs an operation. But my Daddy can't pay for it, so I want to use my money".

"How much do you have?" asked the man from Chicago.

"One dollar and eleven cents", Tess answered barely audibly, "and it's all the money I have, but I can get some more if I need to."

"Well, what a coincidence," smiled the man. "a dollar and eleven cents-the exact price of a miracle for little brothers." He took her money in one hand and with the other hand he grasped her mitten and said, "Take me to where you live. I want to see your brother and meet your parents. Let's see if I have the kind of miracle you need."

That well dressed man was Dr. Carlton Armstrong, a surgeon, specializing in neuro-surgery. The operation was completed without charge and it wasn't long until Andrew was home again and doing well. Mom and Dad were happily talking about the chain of events that had led them to this place.

"That surgery", her Mom whispered, "was a real miracle. I wonder how much it would have cost?"

Tess smiled. She knew exactly how much a miracle cost ............. one dollar and eleven cents ........ plus the faith of a little child.

A miracle is not the suspension of natural law,
but the operation of a higher law. ....

over worked??!!

2009-07-11T11:54:00.005+08:00

Am I over worked??!! Well, I don't know, but I've been having headache since last Thursday after I went to my year 1H class. I know that I can cope with everything and I know I'm capable of doing all my unsettled work but I don't know what went wrong. ;( maybe because I'm getting older and no exercises.. ;p

With most of the evening session pupils running out side the class and to my shocked, a group of pupils ran to staffroom bringing a wounded boy...

It doesn't scare me but with all the commotion, many pupils outside the class and clipping my Excell UPSR papers made me getting tired...

After the wound had been cleaned and Mdm. U had already prepared the letter to bring to the hospital, suddenly the wounded boy ran to the staffroom again. But this time to tell that another boy is hurt. Well, this is the pic I managed to get;

I didn't get the chance to take the pic from the better angel because I was consoling this boy because one of his bone is dislocated and he was trying to straighten it so I had to ask him not to move or touch his hand so that it won't make the matter worse but what I saw really made my legs like jelly...

Wow, I wasn't prepared for that maybe because of that scary incident and when I passed the accident spot which I saw last Wednesday that caused the victim to be in coma until now really scare me.I hope the victim will be alright and our injured pupils will be ok, too.

FYI, all of us who is teaching English in the morning session had to come to the evening session also to cover one of the teacher who went to 14 weeks KDP. It sounds strange but we had to sacrifice our time & energy for 3 months UNPAID, I repeat UNPAID!

It's not that we are not sincere but the thought of us sacrificing and doing double work while some teachers did not even care to be in their class for their own period really made us angry and disappointed! It's the future of our next generation at stake!

But, let the higher officer do their part and we'll just do our work. We don't want to shout out and speak but doing the same mistakes like some people who only see what's hidden inside other's closet but not looking at what's hidden in their own closet.

Well, I guess I'd better rest because just came back a few hours ago from FOCUS class for year 6 and my headache is in a on-off mode.

Happy Weekend you all.
And, make sure you all get enough rest ;)

My "sangai's" wedding

2009-07-07T20:11:00.007+08:00

I managed to grabbed this photo from Anne Petrus's blog. thanx & sorry for not informing.

This is the only picture me & the couple because I couldn't wait until night because I have many errands. ;( ni pun mencuri-curi masa ja because my sangai merajuk sdah I didn't help him with the invitation cards.

Sorry sangai, was really busy until I couldn't make my mind which event I should tend or participate but hey, it doesn't mean I'm putting a gap in our frenship la.

The Blue day, what a coincidence actually.

Me, Sir Asri Ismail~ our Penolong Kanan 1,
Sir Lansu Manjin~the father of the beautiful & georgeous Keningau Unduk Ngadau 2008;Veron, Sir Junigo Jauseh ~ Mdm. Anhancy Rutel's beloved hubby.

Well, last week was one of my busiset week and full with emotions. ;(

30th June
My beloved late hubby's bday. Too sad, I couldn't visit his graveyard bcos 'm too busy.

4th July ~ our beloved late mum's bday.
5th July ~ our beloved mum's 15th Anniversary.

Close up of mum's old pic.

Our beloved late mum & Carl.

Well, eventhough it's been 15 years we didn't get the chance to be with you, all the memories remain and we'll always treasure it though it's so heartbreaking. And as usual, remembering or trying to flash back all your suffering after what happened to our family all the bitter experiences we all went through made us realise that you are better at GOD's home rather than being torture by other people.

Mum, dad, ur family been very supporting to us and how much dad and all of us love you.
Although it's hard and painful, we accept the fate that GOD had written for us.

Mum,
we learnt how to love like Dad with his undying love to you even though what happened was unbearable,
we learnt to be as patience as Dad after what 'that' person did to our family,
But mum, we learnt also to forgive to that person dat made you suffered because we know that GOD is always fair and He's good.

Rest In Peace, Mum...
You will always in our heart.
GOD bless

did it rain?

2009-06-18T22:26:00.005+08:00

June, 17 2009. Wednesday..

Yesterday was the 'Unit Beruniform' assembly and as usual ever pupils have to wear their
co- curricular uniforms. most of the pupils did not wear their uniform, still in holiday mood, eh?

The weather is soo beautiful to just lay on bed and sleep or just laze around but what to do, we have to drag ourselves to school. It started with some drops of water from the sky when suddenly it was drizzling but I'm amazed at the discipline and loyalty showed by the pupils by not moving from where there stand while they were singing the national anthem even though it's drizzling.

I grabbed this pic from a fren in facebook. Wow, some of the teachers I cant remember or recognise!! But those who I often cross paths do remains fresh in memory.
There are ~
Mdm. Joyce Sutili (my class teacher Mr. Frederick Fung, Mr. Lucas Leong (my father~for the Anak Bestari programme when I was in Year 6), The late Teacher Bridget, Mdm. Siti Aishah Abdul Kadir, Mr. Sahidun Mumin(my former colleague), Mr. Andrew Charles, Mr. Marcellus Antohny, The late Mdm. Catherine Yong, Mdm. Maggie Estrop, Mdm. Karen Ho, Mr. Parigu Tingadon, Miss Elisyanti (my fave teacher in SBPS), Mr. Jonny Guntabid, Mr. Adrian Jeklis, Mr. Justin Angian, Miss Lucy Liew, Mdm. Theresa Lumanib, Mdm. Theresa Hiew, Mdm. Josieline E. Sipaul, Mdm. Rafidah and many more who I didn't mean to forget their name.

A shrieking and piercing voice made me turned around and I saw erra ran to me handing this cute jar filled with paper stars.
"TQ" was the only thing I could say.
Erra has been given me many presents and gifts, either it is new or belongs to her. I've been telling her not to give me more presents for her own good. She's not bribing me, eh! Mind you, she's not in my class.

On Tuesday she gave me mug wrapped in a box. Well, it's so nice. Everytime I use the mug, it will remind me of her.

Echie @ noraniza's bday

2009-06-17T23:45:00.005+08:00

Hye, I'm the youngest radio amateur member.

"hello, hello, 9 wiski romeo calling, calling"

The Muhiddin's family
-from the 1st generation to the 3rd generation.

The bday cake we ordered from anies.

It is delicious and satisfying! At this time, most of the cup cakes are all eaten by the kids and also ehem.. ehem.. us!!

The Pillin's clan.

this cute little girl, Sarah is sooo adorable and caught everyone's attention.

As usual, the energetic and naughty Nowel. Minta bawa c erma lari-lari ..wakakakak

Anak gadis yang rajin.. ;>

The gamblers ~ sorry identity is not revealed in order to protect the individuals right. ;>

menumbok

2009-06-17T22:57:00.004+08:00

It's not easy to go back to where bitter memories kept on flashing back...

But my mother-in-law's face made me hold my tears even though I couldn't help it.
I can sense her pain in her smiling face, in every joke she shared in order to make us laugh, all her effort to start a conversation..
I'm impressed how strong this woman in facing the death of her dear son & burying him
and handling all the other children without the advices and opinion from the son she & her husband always relied on.
All the family affairs seems kept on getting worse and more and more obstacles are coming but she and her husband tried to put the sadness aside and cherished our presence..
My father-in-law is like me,
hard for us to look at each other's eyes because we can see the cry inside each other's and end up letting the tears let loose...

We didn't notice that we were getting far from our car. But the scene and surrounding is awesome and worth it to go to the beach regardless the growing heat.

Playing with the waves..I kept on asking Melson, "ko tia mau mandi? best o klu mandi!"
But the active waves made the water unclear to see what lies beneath.

The labuan island from Mempakul..
I wonder which is the exact location for the planned bridge to connect Labuan and Menumbok??

My mother-in-law and nephew are the first to go straight to the beach..
It took me a few minutes to drag myself to the beach.

It reminds me...
The time we went fishing with my beloved late huby, nephews and my mother-in-law,
The place we'll always go in the evening to watch my mother-in-law's buffaloes went bathing,
The place I did the "buang pantang" twice-
the 3rd day after my beloved late huby death
&
the 7th day after my beloved late huby passed away
~to get rid of the bad luck & for my better future in order for me start anew; the people from Bundu Kuala Penyu's belief.

Well, managed to get this delicious 'kuih lobak' from Restoran Malaysia in Beaufort on our way to escort my cousin driving back to Keningau from Bintulu.
It's a must for us everytime we passed or went to Beaufort.

When I told my sister-in-law that I planned to visit my beloved late huby's graveyard, she was shocked and warned me that my parents-in-law might object it.
It's their belief not to disturb the grave.
"Hantar bunga?" 'Nda tau la, klu kami cni kuala buli. tapi tanya2 mama dulu la.'

I was shocked and my tears fell like a heavy rain.
"I've lost him, what now??!! I CAN'T VISIT HIS GRAVE??!!
Are they trying to totally seperate him from me??!!"

Well, my sister-in-law managed to console me by telling me dat we all had to follow the senior's belief.
To pay a visit, pray and touch nothing would be alright she said.

It reminds me of my male fren dulu2 time school,
"tida nampak / jumpa orang dia, atap rumah pun jadi la!" we laughed to his remarks.
Now for me, "tida dapat jumpa orang dia, his grave pun buli la" ;(

Ok, enough crying and mushy2. Wipe the tears, blow the nose.
Look at the yummy cake below.

It was baked by Micheal, Erle's bestfren. Whew! very impressive I said.
The taste delicious, the sponge is moist and the icing isn't too sweet and fruits are fresh.
"ntah brapa kali dia ulang alik p damai ba tu.beli itu, beli ini." was aunty ening's info.
"Adui, sa yg perempuan pun x la ba sanggup bersusah suah buat kek. Ni lagi handsome young man pula yg berabis."
'Buli sudah order ni, tida payah lagi p secret recipe' kunun c erle cakap.

hehehehee...rajin, rajin, rajin.. ala lupa pula ambil gambar the baker. nanti la next time.

GOD send her to HEAVEN

2009-06-14T12:05:00.003+08:00

I was so shocked to receive Jess's sms tis morning.

Eventho' I was tired & sleepy the sms made me wide awake.

"Teacher Cath passed away this morning" was the sms.

She was a kind teacher eventho' she's loud & outspoken..

She's always frank with us, giving opinions or advices in anything.

You can share anything with her...

About study, love-life, problems, you name it!

It reminds me again on how vulnerable life is...

We'll never know when our time will come...

The call won't wait until we've settled all our debts to the almighty & also to the people on earth.

Let us all~ ex-students of Teacher Catherine Yong, to pray for her soul & most of all to the family she had left behind.

May GOD's grace gives her eternal rest in HIS home-in heaven & shine on her family to accept this sad separation.

Shopping??huh??

2009-06-10T19:42:00.000+08:00

Shopping in Heaven

I was walking down life's highway, back a while ago.
One day I saw a sign that read,

As I got a little closer
the door opened wide,
I was surprised and curious,
so I decided to go inside.

I saw a host of Angels,
They were standing everywhere.
One handed me a basket and said,
"My Child, shop with care."

First, I gathered some .

was in the same row.

Further down was

(you need that where ever you go).

Then I picked up ,

and a box of .

I wasn't sure what to get next
so a walked a little more,
the aisles were countless,
this was a HUGE store!

I continued on to find
and

to help me run life's race;

By then my basket was getting full,

but I remembered I needed some .

I couldn't pass up ,

for was completely free,

so I tried to get enough
to save both you and me.

and were plentiful;

they right on the next shelf.

were hanging near,

so I gladly helped myself.

Then I started toward the counter
to pay my grocery bill,
for I thought I had everything I needed
to do the MASTER'S will.

But as I headed to the register

I noticed a display of,

Oh how could I forget
with it so splendidly placed there!

So, as I ended my shopping spree
I grabbed a bottle from the bin,
for I knew when I stepped outside,
I would eventually run into sin.

Then I asked the angel,
"Now, how much do I owe?"

She answered,"Nothing."
"just take them everywhere you go."

In complete confusion again I asked,
"How much do I REALLY owe?"

She bleamed a glorious smile and replied,
"Jesus paid your bill a long time ago."

Now tell your friends and family
of this well known grocery store,
there is never any kind of limit,
and you can always come back for more.

Our Granny's Bday ~Tatti Hilda Jagar Singh

2009-06-02T00:34:00.008+08:00

The problem with people who were born before Independence Day is they dont know exactly when they were born. So, for our granny Mother's Day is also in-conjunction with her birthday.

This year, we made a bit different by celebrating it somewhere else ~ other than our family home in Kg. Keningau.

The grandchildren. Not presence & not in the pics are;
CArence Clay Charles, Erwan Wagimin& Nur Ain & Aiman, Emilinah& husband, Ernah Wagimin, BB(maternity leave) & husband, Saiful Muhiddin, Mohd. Reno Muhiddin, Felsie Joy Pillin, Jesson Pillin, Leke Pillin.

The sons & daughters-in-law;(L-R)
Ignatius Olim, Florence Roger Mosuyun, Henry Yong Vui Lien, Wagimin Sirad, Granma@Tatti Hilda, Nusleh Madarak, Hamdan Saimon Lokman, Golis Timpah, Muhiddin Mahali, MArlina.
Not in the picture/presence; The Late Catherine Frudinsius & Mr. Valerian Hansen Petrus (golfing at 2nd home~Bandung-Jakarta)

The Pillin's Clans;
John Pillin(8th), Annie Pillin(3rd), Valeria Vyner Pillin (10th), Irene @ Noor Azelie Hezyanie Pillin(9th), Alina Pillin(1st), Juma Aidah Pillin(2nd), Flora Pillin( 8th), Valeriandie Hepzibah Pillin(youngest @ 11th), Charles Pillin (5th).
Not in the picture/presence; The Late Florence Pillin (4th)

Aienz, Echie & Me

My lovely& slim aunties & me

Nowellz

Some of the granchildren...Ooops! Don't misunderstood a, the person in the middle is a MAN a. Hehehehheee..sory chie ;)

Koboi @ Muhammmad Najib Lokman, Noraniza Muhiddin @ Echie, Me@ jiejie a.k.a cheche @Ferdoza Stephenie Henry, Ashley Isaac Olim@ Chie, Nur Ain Lokman @ Adik, Velvet Valerian @ Bebet, Harold Farrold Henry @ Carl.

Mama & the geng...
Mrs Alex Lumau~ Mrs. Elizabeth, My beloved step-mum~Mrs. Ugene David,
Mrs. JAlis Kumpit~Mrs Julie, Mrs. Olim Yee,
Mrs. Alisam Yusop (2nd Wife of The Late Pillin Lumau), Mrs. Jasssin Lumau ~ Mrs. Apong.

Will upload the videos later...It was really happening with all the children in-laws and also the grandchildren were dancing to the beat of the songs sang by our uncles/parents.
sadly, ;( so far there is no sign that any of the grandchildren will inherit the singing talent from their parents or grandparents. Haiya, mau hantar p kelas vokal la semua ni. ;)

K, la.. Gnite U 'ol..

WAT!! Cake??

2009-05-27T02:23:00.005+08:00

I was shocked to receive my aunt's sms "Cpat balik! Ada ur cake from secret recipe!!"
"Huh, dari sepa??
"adalaaaaaaa.."
"sepa ba??kami blum siap lg ni"
"sa ba.Nowen x sabar lg mau cut the cake wit you"

We had to do the cleaning in rush. Tengok ba muka beminyak2, berbau peluh lagi tue tapi smile jak kunun because bukan boleh hidu dari ni gambar pun.. ;p

In a split of second, liciiiiinnnnnnnnnnnnnnn.... secret recipe punya sebab kan..

Last monday, we had dinner (again??!!) in-conjunction with 'Father's Day' in advance a..

Ni la muka2 yg p dinner..Adoi, I've put on many weight lagi ni sa rasa o because ever since last week. Unstoppable dinner, dinner..Rosak my diet!! Adoi... Next week lagi school holiday, tambah la, eat activity ja ni.
mmmmmmmmmmmmmmm.......
jogging pun x berkesan ni klu maaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaakaaaaaaaaaaan sedap2 jak

another seminar???

2009-05-27T01:54:00.005+08:00

This is the talk/ seminar we had last Saturday.
It's supposed to be attended by all the teachers in Bingkor Zone but many couldn't make it because some are attending lectures and aome had planned for family vacations earlier. I pitied our GB for having to sit with us at the back because of lack of sofas for the GBs~ mau conduct seminar tapi protokol buang d blakang but mau dapat pengiktirafan. Tau gila glamer & tunjuk tambirang ja.

When Cikgu Asri approaced me last week, I could sense that I would be sent for courses or seminar. Ok juga la, wakil sekolah kunun..

FORUM PENDIDIKAN PERINGKAT NEGERI
Sempena Perayaan Hari Guru ke-38 (I never knew it!)
Date : 26th May 2009
Venue : Dewan Masyarakat Keningau.
Time : 7.30 a.m ~ kunun a, we had to queue for about half an hour when Mdm. Betty suddenly came to our rescue by splitting the attendance sheet. Actually it started 2 hours later!!

Ni la kerja bila keboringan!! C Don la tue; `Faye camera!Ready pose, smile'
Muahahahahaaa...nasib GB kasi partner kami dua & Matzin yg jajal but dia duduk with his guy frens la, tak kan mau duduk sama kami kan? lol

One of the speaker; Y.Bhg. Dr. Amin Senin, Tim. Pengarah Bhg. Peng. Sek. Harian, KPM.

Dr. Amin Senin is my former principal in SMK. Gunsanad. He's good in talking & never let you feel bored. I still remember everytime assembly we never failed to pay full attention to what he was saying.

happiness

2009-05-27T00:01:00.007+08:00

GOD knows when your hearts need encouragement...

"Guard what GOD has entrusted you...May GOD's grace be with you." ~ 1 Timothy 6:20-21

~1 Peter 5:7~

*Cast all your anxiety on HIM because HE cares for you*

"Then Jesus said, 'Come to me, all of you who are weary and carry heavy burdens, and I will give you rest.' " ~Matthew 11:28~

"They encourage one another with the words, 'Be strong!' " ~Isaiah 41:6 ~

"You have turned my mourning into joyful dancing. You have taken away my clothes of mourning and clothed me with joy, that I might sing praises to you and not be silent. O LORD my GOD, I will give you thanks forever" ~`Psalm 30:11-12`~

My Bday ;>

2009-05-18T21:06:00.005+08:00

This cake was given by my beloved late hubby 2 years ago...
He surprised me with my fave cake & he surprised me with dinner with all my family members.

We had dinner just now, sadly my youngest brother Micheal can't join us because of the weather & he is bedridden..
(GOD bless him & he's a blessing to us. A gift from GOD ~ luv U, mike)

Presents from my beloved granma, aunt Nonie, Yean & from Shah(sorry forgot 2 take pic).
TQ everyone. GOD bless U all!!

Nowen was enjoying dinner, habis ba dia eat semua nasi dia!! Beselera pula dia.

"Ada cake, ka bday cheche??" asked Nowen.

Shy-shy kucing kunun c Nowen, bila aunty inak called him.

This little shin chan couldnt join us, hujan tadi.. Hehehehe...

It's hard not to feel sad actually,
But I'm so blessed,
With family & friends,
I used to avoid my birthday since last year,
Since the pillar of my strength; my beloved hubby passed away last year.

It's hard to hold my tears when people wish me,
I appreciate it actually but I'm just holding back my tears,
This year I'm stronger than yesterday to enjoy this day 26 years ago that
GOD has chosen me to be born.

Ever since I was born,
Let's say that I've been having many bitter memories,
What would I expect? I'm just human~Everyone wants a happy life, isn't it?
But
I'm sure GOD has a bigger plan for me,
Even though it seems obvious that people would say my life is miserable,
I learned that what we as human felt good for us isn't always what's the best for us.

Jess's sms:
I'm amazed at how many bdays i hv seen u clabrate,
I'm blessed to have a fren for dat long.
My prayers r always with U. GOD is faithful..
And as U go thru ds journey, remembr ur faithful GOD.
And seek HIM in everythng U do.

I'm sure and has felt HIS presence. With my childhood frens,; jess, alfian@sangai, beth, sainty, BBiana, karen, Ian, weng, Cyn, flovia, Ady, Sharq, Theary, mada.
my kelik; Umi, Doni, Cgu An, Yus, Jamella.
My family; DAD, aunt nonie, mum Ian, mama wan, uncle valerian, aunty irene, Yean, erma, ernah, clay, beben, ashley, koboi, uncle IO, nur aien, NEA, BEBET @VELVET, aunt inak, aunt otong, ND, ben, aunty onon, uncle golis, clay, the twins: ebi & ebip, kak neh, my son Miguelmutien, boboi, my MIL & FIL, many more...the lists goes on~u know who U r

Action Song & Choral Speaking Competition

2009-05-18T15:15:00.007+08:00

Venue : SMK Bingkor, Keningau
Date : 13 May 2009

~~Congratulation to all the winners!!!~~

NABIL SAUQI SAPARI, for me U r the winner.
Congats on ur effort, I salute U. I would have the energy to do both practices and at the same time preparing for this coming exam. Whoah, U r the example for other students.

Unbelievable, trying his best to be a good story-teller. ;>

Our Nabil managed to get the 4th place in Story telling competition. I admire his effort not only in this competition but he was practising & memorising for the Choral Speaking competition which was held the next day after this competition at our own school. Quiet impressive since he's also busy studying for his UPSR this year.

Our Action Song team which is for level 1, trained by Miss Phizulinah, Mdm. Anhancy, Mdm. Ignatia & Mdm. Evelyn is on the 5th place. Good effort, since this is the 1st time our school took part in this competition.

manikayu

2009-04-29T23:34:00.006+08:00

This cute boy was about to sleep when suddenly I took his pics. Bgaya betul ni, trus pandai look at the camera lagi kunun with muka kasian. Dei!!!

hahahahahahahaaaaaaaaaaaaa kasian ni mau tertidur kunun.. ;>

my aunt didnt notice when I took tis pics. but I told her about wat's so interesting about it.. mmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm does tis counted as bad?? I wonder??

actually tis pics are taken on Sunday easter. look at the chairs marked. I was soooo sleepy when we attended the 1st mass but this vanadalise chair did brighten me up and made me smile and I'm soooo impressed with the person's creativity..

What we often think as bad isnt totally bad, bcos it might be a good thing for others.. U know wat I mean??? hehehehee.. I didnt mean to support vandalisme a, dont get me wrong!!

my son was asking, apa tu mami??? wat's dat??hehhehehheheeee..

haiya, the scout thing ba... tis is wat I did bila tlampau mgantuk sdah.

My son, Miguel and me..

The course is supposed to end at 4.30 p. m. but after 5.40 p. m. it hadnt ended and I just left after receiving my cert.. And I get the chance to meet my schoolmate who I never met for more than 8 years!!! Whew, how time flies, I met Dana and happy dat she's happily married now. GOD bless her

another cute pose of naughty & adorable Nowel

Tagged by my Sangai

2009-04-16T20:45:00.003+08:00

First of all, I would like to apologies all my blogger fwens who had tagged me before that I didnt reply their tag. Sorry, I really forgot. Next time, I promise to do it.

I'm tagged by my sangai
with no furter delay I'll do it now!!

RuLes & ReGuLaTioNs
#~.:.~#
1. Do not copy the answers.
2. The tag questions must be 100% same.
3. Tag people after doing the tag.
4. No tagging back.
.:.
I'm tagging these people ~ ;)

(p/s = guys if u've done this tagged..just ignore this ah,kalau belum and interested to this tagged..it is my pleasure * .... *)

♥
How do you know 1?
~hehehehe..she's my aunt ;)

What would you do if you never met 2?
~ mmmm...I'l sure meet her juga tu bcos she's my fren's cousin & my aunt's BFF' s daughter ;)

What would you do if 3 & 4 dated you?
~ mmmm...I often date 3..she's one of my BFF, I'll difintely bgaduh ja sama dia & of course SHOPPING!! kan jes?? Well, I just met 4 and I guess it would be purrrfect if I dated both of them, buli tau ni c noves kaki shopping!! ;)

Would 5 & 6 make a good couple?
~ WAKAKAKAKAKAKAKAKAK... I never meet 6, but for sure NO is my answer bcos 5 is taken, hehehehehe ;)

Do you think 7 is attractive?
~Of course!!! She's sooooo interesting and a very independent woman!

Do you know anything about 8's family?
~ Wops!! just a litle bit, which is mmmmmmmm I only know dat she's from penampang. does that count??

Tell me something about 9.
~ Alama!! The only thing I know is, she's soooo understanding, kind and love anime!!!

What language does 2 speak?
~ English & Malaya. Dusun pun ka, ty?

Who is 3 going out with?
~ no. 5

How old is 4?
~ same like me, going to be 26 ;)

Who is 6's favourite singer?
~ alama!!! x tau o!! ;)

Would you date 7?
~ Y not??? Best ba sama c flo yg banyak tau about food & agriculture.

Is 10 single?
~ I dunno o but I guess, no

What is 9's last name?
~ Alama!!! I dunno o ;)

Would you consider being in a relationship with 1?
~ of course!!! memang ada relationship pun!!

Which school does 2 go to?
~ the same school like mine but she went to uni & I didnt.

What do you like about 3?
~ alalalala..byk o. understanding, always thre 4 me, pious, funny, jajal but most of all for who she is. moreover, she's my childhood fren since kindergarden!!! wah lama o kan!

that's all, happy tagging!!~~~

UnDeCiDeD

2009-04-15T23:03:00.003+08:00

HELP!!!!
I dont know!!! Undecided..
Please help me..

Tis weekend actually I already planned to go to 'Freedom Camp'
but
my uncle, my aunt & my cousins from Aus just came & planned to meet with us tis weekend!

Adui, both are importante,
if I go to the camp
~ I didnt get the chance to meet them which they ususally come once for 2 years or 3 years.

if I meet them & didnt go to the camp
~ I didnt get the chance to experience the activities which I've been longing for so long which is food to my soul.

How A Jess???? Is it not meant to be????? Any suggestion?? Or opinion...
Actually I planned to do both at a time but it means I won't be fully focusing in the camp activities but at the same time I managed to do 2 activities at a time.
But if any nof you have better option, pls let me know....
Thanx

BTW I read tis blog by Faisal Admar
I dunno wat is the title of tis song & who's the singer,
is it David Archuleta's song ~ If You are not the one??
pls help me, anyone???
I kinda like the lyrics.

If you're not the one, then why does my soul feel glad today?
If you're not the one, then why does my hand fit yours this way?
If you are not mine, then why does your heart return my call?
If you you are not mine, would I have the strength to stand at all?

I never know what the future brings
But I know you're here with me now
We'll make it through and I hope
You are the one I share my life with

I don't wanna run away but I can't take it, I don't understand
If I'm not made for you, then why does my heart tell me that I am?
Is there anyway that I can stay in your arms?

If I don't need you, then why am I crying on my bed?
If I don't need you, then why does your name resound in my head?
If you're not for me, then why does this distance name my life?
If you're not for me, then why do I dream of you as my wife?

I don't know why you're so far away
But I know that this much is true
We'll make it through and I hope
You are the one I share my life with

And I wish that you could be the one I die with
And I pray that you're the one I build my home with
I hope I love you all my life

I don't wanna run away but I can't take it, I don't understand
If I'm not made for you, then why does my heart tell me that I am?
Is there anyway that I can stay in your arms?

'Cause I miss your body and soul so strong
That it takes my breath away
And I breath you into my heart
And I pray for the strength to stand today

'Cause I love you whether it's wrong or right
And though I can't be with you tonight
And though my heart is by your side

I don't wanna run away but I can't take it, I don't understand
If I'm not made for you, then why does my heart tell me that I am?
Is there anyway that I can stay in your arms?

Christ HAs Risen!!! Alleluia! Alleluya!

2009-04-12T20:37:00.006+08:00

I visited mr. Greg's blog and found tis ..

HOLY WEEK REFLECTIONS :

1. Sometimes God breaks our spirit to save our soul;
2. Sometimes He breaks our heart to make us whole;
3. Sometimes He sends us pain so we can be stronger;
4. Sometimes He sends us failure so we can be humble;
5. Sometimes He sends us illness so we can take better care of ourselves;
6. Sometimes He takes EVERYTHING away from us so we can learn the value of EVERYTHING we have.

I remember receiving tis SMS last year and it really touched me..
It's true actually,
if you believe in GOD and
if you believe in HIS presence and
if you believe that HE has the greatest power on earth and
most of all if you believe HE loves you so much without looking at who you are, what you have and all your sins...

But I'm still trying my best learning to let go wat I dont have now...

Mr. Greg's previous blog also is my favourite. It's about Nick Vujicic...

After all, I realise I'm not the most unfortunate person in this whole wide world(well, only GOD knows wat I mean).

I learn that no matter how hard and frustrating I felt (even NOTHING can make me feel better), how awful and ughly I felt, life is worth living...Thank GOD for this blessing, amen.

Well, lent time is really a quiet tough time for everyone.. At this time the temptation is very strong. And as for me, I almost let myslef conquered by my bad temper which is the hardest bad attitude I had kicked ever since my bloved late huby came into my life...

GOD,
Please forgive the sins of my beloved ancestors, my beloved granparents, my beloved parents, my beloved late hubby, my beloved families, my beloved in-laws, my beloved friends and everyone who have hurt me & my family and friends and also every single human in this world. We are just human with a lot of weaknesses.

I would like to pray to all the souls YOU had called.
For the souls of my beloved late Mum, my beloved late hubby, my beloved late granny, both my beloved late granpa, the late aunt Catherine Prudinsius, the late aunt Mary Tawin, the late aunty Ketty M, Chew Bee Hock's late father, the late Henry Wong @ Ahsin, the late Alfie Masi, my relatives and friends who I cant remember, all souls in purgatory, my beloved late cat and also my beloved late hubby's cat that you just called this morning...

We know they are in your hand GOD, in your house in Paradise...We'll always pray for them GOD, give them eternal rest in HEAVEN, amen...

Women's bestfriend............

2009-04-12T19:18:00.005+08:00

Well, I've talked about shoes now it's time for jeweleries...HHmmmmm it's my fave actually. hehehehehee..

My main task to 1 B was actually to repair my bracelet and help Umi to buy her gold brooch. Knowing the temptation is great for me, Umi actually warned me not to let myself drift and drown by the 'bling' 'bling'... hehehehe...

Well, wat to do..I'm just human with the female gender and strong feminine attitude, wakakakakak...feminine mangkali!!

I lost control and this is my new collection.....

HHHHmmmm wat actually tempted me was the small labels, 50% and 70%. hahahahaha.....women... sigh!

moreover, to my surprise the person who attended me let me try Habib's new collection, Hearts On Fire (memang tebakar ati pun!!). He also let me tried if the diamond become the stone for a ring,OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG !!!!!

x benapas juga la sekejap.. sa rasa kalau ada c umi, kami dua2 macam possesed!

the diamond only, RM4* ***! Adui, tapun2 ja la. but terrer juga la dia mengoda by letting me tried the smallest one around RM5***.

Alah, telupa pula mau gambar brooch c umi!! tapi sa rasa mesti kena marah klu sa kasi masuk. hehehehehehe..x ka sardin d kgau Umi?? wakakakakakakak ~~~kita dua ja tau tu. ;)

Jakarta

2009-04-09T01:46:00.000+08:00

My New Collection....

2009-04-09T01:06:00.007+08:00

Well, this is my Collection for this Rainy Season... Just ignore the dust at the shoe, banyak lumpur ba. So had to use kasut yg ada 4WD supaya x tenggelam dalam lumpur.

Ni la my 'supplement' for Rainy Season a. In the end kalah jua dengan virus2 yang banyak. Bukan setakat murid2 ja penyebar virus, my colleague pun a..

And the most importante thing is, ini la klu mau p mana-mana...

mmmmmmmmmm....

nasib 2morow, ooopss!! salah! today cuti sudah

Umi...umi...Happy Bday, Sweet Seventeen..

2009-04-09T00:35:00.005+08:00

Last Saturday, Umi treated us at Hotel Juta for her Bday. It was supposed to be on 3rd April.

Us (Ila, Umi, Me & Diony )

Uina, c May (a.k.a gf c Nowellz) pun x mau ketinggalan! ~sory, the pics are blur

Baaa...baaa.. apa jadi ni Sally??

Muka kepuasan sdah c umi balik2 kena suruh bergambar. Ekekekekek..

C May yang mau kena gambar, aunty dia pun interprem!

Dei, apa kunun dia fikir ni. Mentang2 'merdeka' sudah kunun! Wakakakakak

Kesian c May kelaparan...

The Birthday Girl,

Period is not the right way to measure our friendship,

I believe you are one of those angels sent to me,

I don't know how we are blended together but I do know, GOD planned for this friendship.

GOD bless you.

Be strong my friend, we still have a long journey..

shopping + excercise + lack of sleep + laugh + lots of food = holidays??>?

2009-03-30T20:31:00.008+08:00

enjoying ourselves after at Baso Malang. hehehehe.. but the owner x malang a.. The outlet has many branches around Indonesia and it made me & Fen thinking of opening our own soooooooooooooooon in keningau ( wakakakak angan2 maT jenin a)

Uuii!! Fen, klu kenyang pun jgn la duduk begitu!! wakakakak apa ba kamu bgosip tu??? mesti takajut nampak cowok-cowok yang ganteng kan?? hehehehehe

model for d'Palm cafe & restaurant.. the food is delicious & the price is sooo reasonable with all that amazing landscapes.

hehehehe.. sorry a, not synchronise. tis is the excited faces upon reaching jakarta. only me look sleepy and can even sleep standing. muahahahaha...alaalaa x pula c Ibu Ai!!

Dei, e2 dua cewek model troli a.. ha, baru ada c Ibu Ai yang ayu, lemah-lembut & sporting.

Ila jangan takut!! Aik, sepa yg interfrem beside me tu a?

who has the most sexy lips?? sama ka lips kami?

ramai yg x percaya ni, dat this leopard is real.

"Mbak, jgan d buat jika menyeksakan. mukanya pucat sekali" kurang asam c minah indon mengejek sambil ketawa2.

Do I look pale? U tell me.. hehehehehe

The White Tiger

The Mini Zoo

Just ignore the messy dining table

At 'Our Balcony' for a nite. Nice kan the houses?? as if we were in Europe

The Three Stooges

Model Pintu - The Lau Pu Se

( U remember the famoous chinese comic yg ada a tall & thin man and the fat & short man. wakakakak.. ada iras2 ka kami e2 comic??)

Model Aston Apartment (my handbag, Umi's handbag, Doni's bag pun mau interfrem!)

YA, TUHAN!!!! hahahaha..

ni baru a section a, yg lain2 x sempat sebab almost x benapas memilih

(both me & umi were chanting prayers according to our own belief,

menahan takut terborong semua )

hahahaha sot, kan?? me & Umi were fascinated + speechless + amazed + undecided with a lot of choices. sekali keluar, the others tertidur a dlm kreta, nasib we both bought one for each other. klu x mesti dorang terbakar kan, sorry fwens kamu jg la very sporting.

Sorry jess, sa pun undecided...next time dear..

Hot Spring Sari Ater.. It's a must if you really want to have a vacation.. the place is sooo beautiful. There are open theater, flying-fox, bungee, go-kart, picnic area, camping arrea, hotel & SPA.

YA TUHAN!!!!!(only wse knows the hidden incidents, ekekekekek )

Sorry Fen, x sempat cover ur sexy stomach.

Teh Botol Sosro yg membuatkn c Umi & Doni terbayang-bayang dan kepingin mau minum sampai sekarang a. terpaksa sa balik2 remind dorng supaya bpijak d bumi nyata a.

That's all for my missing weeks.. Sorry guys I know there were times I can be 'frightening'..Wat to do, it runs in my blood the bad temper inheritance. hehehehe.. GOD bless U all

Whew!! wat a vacation

2009-03-25T22:38:00.005+08:00

sorry frens, been so long didnt post anything...

I tried to drag myslef but something been bothering me.. Well, for now I'll just share my pics wit Tity 8 SHC.

Yang c Jess & Boby a.k.a Danielson pujuk2 sa x pulang kgau last saturday a! Punya la terrer tis

couple memujuk. Pandai2 lagi tu arrange things depan2 sa as if sa approve mau stay padahal my

cab mau sampai sudah ba.

I can't deny that I really need GOD's presence now.. The road is getting tougher and my journey is soooo long..

FREEDOM CAMP

here I come.

children nowadays

2009-02-23T22:29:00.005+08:00

I was a bit shocked with our headmaster's speech this morning. It was kinda mean but that's what us teachers would like to say but dint have the courage to let it out. I'm not going to quote the exact words but this is the summary I made:

" Saya dengar keputusan PROTIM sangat mengejutkan. Mcmana 1 - 1 ada yg jawab 1??!!! kalau ada lagi yg tidak dapat jawab lepas bmula PROTIM nanti saya ajar panjang lebar d bilik saya"

" Sudah dua minggu berturut2 ada sahaja murid yg cendera semasa bermain d kawasan sekolah. Jgn jadikan sekolah ini suatu tempat 'membunuh diri'. Tujuan kamu ke sekolah bukan lah hanya bermain semata-mata."

For the 1st time in this school, I heard our HM is supporting us.

I remember 2 weeks ago, on friday, I was busy doing my work & since I'm in the 'hardworking' mood I continued my work until 12 eventho' the school ended at 11.30 p. m.

Then suddenly, a few pupils ran to the staffroom door. "Cikgu kepala adik saya pecah! Banyak darah ba!"

I was just smiling and I dont think that might happened. After seeing the pupil's condition I called Umi who happend to be the teacher-in-charge for evening sesion. The funny thing was, the boy was kinda brave & concern with us also. When we arived 8 the hospital Umi almost puked upon seeing the blood on the boy's shirt & shoes. So I said she better wait in the car & I could handle him but Umi said she'll b ok and the boy said "jaga2 jatuh a teacher". Umi said, "ba ingat2lah, dia yg sakit bukan kita".

We brought the pupil to the emergency room & he received the out-patient treatment.

Last friday, on recess time my fren even joked saying, "Ba faye, ntah apa lagi jadi ni ari. Minggu lalu ada yg pecah kepala."

"Ya tu lah" I said. "Bukan dalam pun luka dia tapi darah saja banyak. Lagi pun ada yg cakap dalam padahal x pun dalam. Kecil ja luka dia, tapi mungkin sebab tengahari kan"

We laughed at the thought and said that the parents shouldnt send their kids in evening session early to school on friday because teachers only come around 1 p. m on friday. Suddenly,

"Cikgu, cikgu kepala c Joy luka! Dia terjatuh!"

The funny thing is, duluan lagi sampai the informer dari the injured victim!! So we asked them to bring Joy to staffroom.

When he reached staffroom, we didnt see any blood oozing but his hands were full of blood. When I asked him where his wounds are, my legs became jelly and it made me shiver. It was deep, maybe about 2cm deep and there were a few.

Wew, 2 weeks in a row there were injured pupils sent to the hospital... Not to mention the previous incidents!! Our job as teachers are getting tougher!

Well, if u think my story is over, u r totally wrong. hehehehe.. that was just the intro.

Some people tend to see our job as teachers is simple but they dont actually know the downs we had to go through. Yes, I know every job has it's disadvantages but our profession being unsecured is very unfair!!

~~ We were told not to cane pupils.

When 20 out f of 37 my year 6 pupils didnt do their homework, I made them ran a few rounds at our school field because I know I shouldnt cane them. Does this work?? Well, the next day a few pupils do the homework and many more are still stubborn. and the most invaluable gift I recived are curses from them.

"Cilaka punya cikgu garang!"

"kurang asam punya teacher!"

"Sial punya teacher! Anjing! Pukima!"

Is it my fault they didnt do their homework and they get punished?

~~ If I just said, "alah, I still get my salary. Peduli lah dorang, sepa yg mau belajar untung lah. saya x rugi apa2."

For sure the exam's outcome will all b RED in colour. We had to explain why it's happening & if we r unlucky, some HM will blame us & gave us low marks in yearly performance achievment.

~~I had to try other methods. Maybe my lesson arent that interesting.

I had tried this before. The result is? I ended wasting time in order to get them interested in learning rather than achieving what I planned them to learn that day.

~~I'll try to make them pay attention when I'm teaching. I have to force them doing their homework so that they will enrich what I taught them.

I ended up being so stress up because I had to control everyone and make sure they arent chit-chatting with their frens or doing other work. I will waste more time in making sure everyone do their homework. But the main & biggest problem is, the pupils tend to copy the answers from their friend in order not to be punished. And moreover, a "alah asal siap" or "siap X siap" hantar saja attitude.

~~We were that our main priorities in school is Teaching & Learning

PROTIM mau hantar 23 Februari ni. Terpaksa la buat PROTIM saja sampai selesai. P&P lain? Tergendala.

Cikgu p kursus ini. Tapi cikgu sa ajar tahun 6. Ba, ini arahan PEJABAT.

Ini arahan PEJABAT, guru2 PPSMI mesti ajar 'fully in english' kalau tidak BISP kena tarik.

** Adui, senang saja cakap. Buat ini Dasar pelajaran yg baru. Mesti hantar ini. P kursus ini. It ends up we had less time to finish the syllabus and also might not finished it! P&P 1st priority kunun, tapi mau suruh buat itu, buat ini. Ingat kami ni robot?

Well, this is my career. I had to live with it. Watever...

Happy Bday DAD, 14 February 2009

2009-02-15T17:22:00.004+08:00

Last nite we had family dinner at Steamboat to celebrate dad's bday.

This pic is taken 2 years ago on Dad's bday. Carl, my bro is feeding Dad with cake.

My beloved late hubby with Dad.. Those were the days...

Happy Bday Dad,

you are the living example for us Dad,

Your patience, hardwork, how you remain calm in any situation.

When unexpected things happened,

you showered us with your undying love and affection,

You are always at our side when all things fall apart.

You stregthen us and support us in many ways...

May GOD bless and guide you always Dad. we are lucky to have U as our Dad.

We love you Dad, always and forever,

Faye & The late Jeffrey Kui LEng, Carl, Micheal & aunt nonie.

Uurgh!!!

2009-02-12T20:20:00.006+08:00

This morning as I was controling my hormones & temper after a straight 4 periods of mathematics with 4H & 6H, I received a call from my bro. I was about to relax my mind before continuing my lesson for another straight 4 periods with 5B when suddenly my bro called with a bad news.

"Che, ko d mana?"

"Ba d skul la, mana lagi."

"Bgus ko balik skrang ntah macam ni rumah mau kena kasi pecah habis ja. Kena ambur ba ni rumah. Semua berpecahan, rumah kena masuk pencuri."

"Astaga, apa hilang?"

"Ntah, ko p tinguk sendri la"

"Ba, ya la"

Thank GOD my fren Umi voluntered 2 fren me. Umi tried 2 calm me throughout the journey back home, I could still control myself actually but maybe Umi wasnt get used the way I'm drving.

When I reached home, from the front door it was like nothing happened. I was about to say "Aik, macam ko kasi main sa ja ni" to my bro when this scene greeted me:

I was sooo shocked & speechless and hoping for the best. The thieves actually broke our windows and managed to broke the thick iron that is supposed to be our grill. ~~padahal tertanam di simen. ~~Kinda like the work of people who knows about building houses & buildings. I was afraid that the theif would take my engagement ring, I'm still wearing my wedding ring and I'm always wearing it actually.

Sempat juga la my fren Umi cracked a joke,
" Dia ingat senang mau kemas ni semua kan? Suka ati ja menyelongkar begini"
Hahahaha..betul juga la because it still remain like that because I was sooo tired of thinking & not in the mood of tidying everything.

I directly searched my ring but only found 1 and I was really down but after kurik sana, kurik sini I soon found it. Thank GOD!!!

Do you all notice some of the valuable things that are still there??? Thank GOD the thief didnt take my handphones, my gold rings, the digital cameras and also the Radio receiver. I'm also lucky they didnt took my bank book, ASB book and also my passport.

(matilah mau p buat balik semua. banyak keja ni)

Hey, wat's he up too a?? He managed to steal my laptop and a few hundred ringgits. From his footsteps marks, it's like they are trying to steal my CPU also. Haiya, kinda fishy ni..

Did make a police report but wat tire me was I had to repeat my story all over again for more than 3 times to all different police officer.. And none of them jot down any I was saying.

I was really pissed of but managed to control myself and I was relieved when they went to the crime scene and took some pictures. After I had to come again and make a police report. Really tiring!!! Sudah la panas, penat, haus lagi. Bagus kalau kena kasi minum!! It' s only a less than 1 hour thing but it all done after 3 hours and we missed our KOKUM meeting.

Polis...sepa xtau kan.

wat a scene!! whew~~!

2009-02-04T18:43:00.003+08:00

Today most of the schools in our Zone are having Cuti Peristiwa while we could only dream that we'll be given Cuti Peristiwa also. Eventho' we are the organiser for this year event, we had to drag ourselves to school today.

Even my pupils look tired and not energetic! Poor them, although they were tired but they still show their responsibility by going to school.

Thank GOD my time today wasnt packed. My last maths class with year 4 Harapan went a bit well compared to the previous lessons. As usual they started their work with chit chatting, sharpening their pencils & moving around the class. I as the most fierce teacher around had to make them do their work.

Suddenly,

" Teacher si A bawa pisau!" said Faazily Roy

"Aik, macamana ko nampak?"

"Dia kasi tengok sa." answered him.

" Kecil mungkin. Macamana panjang dia? "

" Begini." while he showed me with his finger. The average of small kitchen knife about 10 cm.

I was shocked and rushed to his place.

" Kasi tengok teacher, A."

"Sa x mau!!" he was crying and look angry. He was looking to Z in anger because earlier they had a fight over breaking each other's pencils.

I held his hand. He was struggling to escape from me and wanted to run with the knife in his bag. I held both his hands when he was pointing the knife to his friends.

I was kinda shocked by his action. He went 'amok' to whoever tried to get near us and also anyone who tried to grab the knife from him. I was more shocked when he tried to point the knife to my hand which was holding his right hand.

The incident went about 15 minutes when suddenly Mr. Dzulkifli went to our rescue. For the first time I was so shaky with the thought of me being harm.I am only teaching for a few years but this incident will always be one of the most memorable one.

I guess, from this incident we should do a lot of thinking. A boy at the tender age of 9 is using his own law in solving his problem with his friend. And if we open our eyes widely, more people are becoming more irrational and bad temper nowadays.

It's so scarry with the war in Gaza that hasnot show any sign of peace. We should be prepared because it's happening in our own neighbourhood now. What we usually heard happening in US is here now.

ECHO???

2009-02-01T22:03:00.005+08:00

A son and his father were walking on the mountains. Suddenly, the son falls, hurts himself and screams: "AAAhhhhhhhhhhh!!!"

To his surprise, he hears the voice repeating, somewhere in the mountain: "AAAhhhhhhhhhhh!!!" Curious, he yells: "Who are you?"

He receives the answer: "Who are you?"

Angered at the response, he screams: "Coward!"

He receives the answer: "Coward!" He looks to his father and asks: "What's going on?"

The father smiles and says: "My son, pay attention." And then he screams to the mountain: "I admire you!" The voice answers: "I admire you!"

Again the man screams: "You are a champion!" The voice answers: "You are a champion!"

The boy is surprised, but does not understand. Then the father explains: "People call this ECHO, but really this is LIFE. It gives you back everything you say or do. Our life is simply a reflection of our actions." If you want more love in the world, create more love in your heart.

If you want more competence in your team, improve your competence. This relationship applies to everything, in all aspects of life; Life will give you back everything you have given to it.

R u worried?

2009-02-01T21:12:00.007+08:00

Are U worried?

Well, for sure everyone in this world has their own problems. About work, studies, family, friendships, relationships with others, financial problems, attitude problems, bad habits well you name it evryone for sure has been through in either one of all mentioned.

Life gives us many blessings

The picture below doesnt show that they are having problems but karaoke do help us to lessen our worry & release tension.

(hehehehehe Don, jan mare a...lawa juga ko ba.tolong jgan sue a, nanti kena sisip surat layang p gate ko x takut?)

Just want to share with you all the happy faces of my twins SIL.. They look sooo sweet.. It seems like their faces tell us to live life to the fullest. No worries!!

"Karena itu Aku berkata kepadamu: Janganlah kuatir akan hidupmu, akan apa yang hendak kamu makan atau minum, dan janganlah kuatir pula akan tubuhmu, akan apa yang hendak kamu pakai. Bukankah hidup itu lebih penting dari pada makanan dan tubuh itu lebih penting dari pada pakaian? Pandanglah burung-burung di langit, yang tidak menabur dan tidak menuai dan tidak mengumpulkan bekal dalam lumbung, namun diberi makan oleh Bapamu yang di sorga. Bukankah kamu jauh melebihi burung-burung itu? Siapakah di antara kamu yang karena kekuatirannya dapat menambahkan sehasta saja pada jalan hidupnya?

Dan mengapa kamu kuatir akan pakaian? Perhatikanlah bunga bakung di ladang, yang tumbuh tanpa bekerja dan tanpa memintal, namun Aku berkata kepadamu: Salomo dalam segala kemegahannya pun tidak berpakaian seindah salah satu dari bunga itu. Jadi jika demikian Allah mendandani rumput di ladang, yang hari ini ada dan besok dibuang ke dalam api, tidakkah Ia akan terlebih lagi mendandani kamu, hai orang yang kurang percaya? Sebab itu janganlah kamu kuatir dan berkata: Apakah yang akan kami makan? Apakah yang akan kami minum? Apakah yang akan kami pakai?

Semua itu dicari bangsa-bangsa yang tidak mengenal Allah. Akan tetapi Bapamu yang di sorga tahu, bahwa kamu memerlukan semuanya itu. Tetapi carilah dahulu Kerajaan Allah dan kebenarannya, maka semuanya itu akan ditambahkan kepadamu. Sebab itu janganlah kamu kuatir akan hari besok, karena hari besok mempunyai kesusahannya sendiri. Kesusahan sehari cukuplah untuk sehari." (Mat 6:25-34)

Well, for sure evryone is worry about every single thing.
Not enough money to buy wat's in your wishlist,
you don't look that georgeous, you don't look sexy,
you aren't slim, your fashion isn't up to date,
your hair do isn't attracting, your house isn't as big as a castle,
your spouse isn't hadsome or georgeous, your spouse isn't wealthy,
you aren't the most brilliant worker or students,
your clothing aren't designer's label, and the list goes on and would continue till eternity...

LIVE LIFE TO THE FULLEST, IF YOU FACE ANY PROBLEMS DON'T WORRY.(easier said than done)
DON'T WORRY ABOUT 2MORROW, GO WITH THE FLOW, LET GOD DO HIS JOB. WE DO OUR JOB, PRAY TO GOD, DO WAT HE TAUGHT US.

Well, that's my opinion. Up to you, it's your life. Only you could colour the world with your own choice.

Easier said than done (to SharQ @ 11X)

2009-01-25T10:35:00.003+08:00

Yesterday our school had "gotong royong" in our school to cut the grasses, make chairs and tables. Most of the parents & teachers came to help & support this good deed.

BTW, action is louder than words.

Some of the fathers are willingly sacrificing their gas &

energy by cutting the grass at our school field.

While some of the parents are showing their carpenting skills.

Everyone is busy carpenting and didnt notice I was taking their pictures. It's all for the convenience of their children.

Credits goes to Madam Ruhainie Tamin & husband for sponsoring & getting sponsors for all the plywood & timber. Also not forgetting to all parents who came & also teachers who supported this event and also not forgetting to Mr Francis for being the transporter for all those timber.

GOD loves her more....

2009-01-24T21:31:00.003+08:00

This is the pic I grabbed from Tity's blog. She posted this picture a few days ago on her Dad's birthday.

GOD has taken Tity's mum this morning after struggling with her sickness for a few years.

May GOD's strengths & love comforts Tity and her family.

Rest In Peace aunty, you are in GOD's hand right now and we are sure GOD has prepared a place for you in HEAVEN, amen.

It's raaaaaainy season....

2009-01-21T22:40:00.004+08:00

Well, this is what happened everytime I went to the toilet. Even my Carlo Rino sandal couldnt survive with a lot of mud bath & washing afterwards.

As for us teachers, we can cope with it but I pity my students who had to kept on washing their shoes bcos 'tanggalam dalam lumpur'.

Poor them,with white & clean shoes but it all just stay 4 a few minutes upon arrival 8 school.

My 6 Harapan pupils sitting for EXCEL 1

Notice that most of them are sharing the tables.

2 tables for 3 pupils, sometimes even worse 2 pupils are sharing a chair!!

We had been informed that reports to PPD had been made for a few years continuously but it all kinda fall to a deaf ear.

my trip to bandung 2

2009-01-08T21:24:00.003+08:00

The tired faces after shopping while waiting the others... Notice the cinema at our back?? The shopping complex is soooo fun and enoyable..

We had lunch at one of the Sunda restaurant.. The is just ok. The way they cook the food just like chinese style but it's tastier here in Sabah. hehehehe better trying it rather than never tasted it before.

The members of our trip.. hehehehehe all of them are supposed to be having their honeymoon (sorry uncle valerian, kacau daun.hehehehe) but I'm the 'anak bulan' & my kind-hearted uncle voluntarily slept 8 the living room.GOD bless U

The scene at Rumah Mode are getting more happening when we left. There were live bands in the afternoon at this outlet. It's one of the best outlet for me because other than entertainment, there were food court with a lot of variety from local food to western food.

tea / coffee anyone?

2009-01-06T21:31:00.002+08:00

We give thanks for our blessings,

We pray for well-being,

We ask for peace and love...

But we should also take timeTo enjoy these things-

The blessings that come from above.

For the Lord fulfills our wishes

With this our special ability:

To partake in all life's blessings -

Even simple pleasures,

Like a heartwarming cup of tea or coffee.

I hope you have a peacefull and relaxing day!

Remember to enjoy life's special gifts,

don't take them for granted!!

Wellcome back 2 school teachers & pupils/students

2009-01-06T14:00:00.002+08:00

hye teachers, pupils / students.

How was your 1st day yesterday ?? As for me, the 1st day was chaos!!

Y? mmmm... I thought dat I was suppose 2 be in evening session so I woke up late.

After brushing my teeth, I directly sweep the floor & wanted to finish all the housework early. Suddenly, my HP rang and my fwren Doni was on the phone.

"Woit, cepat p skul. GB cari ko!!" I tot she was going 2 say "ada nazir".
"Serious ka main2 ni?"
"Aik serious ba! Cepat! 2 kali sdah dia tanya ko!!"

I quickly took my shower, iron my clothes & get ready. Wow, I spent only 30 mins on dat!! Usually more time than dat!!

I came to school & soome even gave my cynical smiles, cynical greetings:
"Kami tau sdah ba 2"
"Jadi knpa x kestau sa??"
They just smiled. Sellfish!! I thought. Nevermind, it's karma....GOD is fair..

Thank GOD my GB do understands.

my trip to bandung 1

2009-01-04T12:10:00.006+08:00

This is my aunt Inak @ Valentina.

We stayed 8 Aston Apartment in Bandung.The food is superb!!! I've been eating pastries all throughout the trip & the conclusion is...I gain more weight!!! URGH!!!!

I never like Bakso or known as Baso by the local people but this Bakso has changed my perception of the taste of Bakso and I really like it!! I'll sure come back to this restaurant in my 2nd trip with my colleagues.

It doesnt taste like meat only, it's a mixture of beef, chicken & seafood and everyone will love it.. My uncle even ordered another bowl of Bakso

This is one of the active Volcano at Tangkuban Perahu.Just at the foot of the hill we could smell the strong smell of sulphur..Luckily I'm equipped with my gastric medicine& I managed to eat it before it get's worse.

This is at the Nasi Padang restaurant.. The food are very delicious but high cholestrol, spicy and rich with coconut milk and almost all of the dishses are cook with coconut milk.

We were so hungry that time and we almost clean up all the dishes served!! Oh ya, they will serve you all the menu they have and you will only pay the dishes you eat. Just say the served you 20 dishses and you only eat 1 dish, you will only pay the one dish you ate. We even went Nasi Padang twice, it's worth every rupiah & delicious!!

the pics I promised

2009-01-04T11:51:00.001+08:00

Happy 1st Anniversary my beloved late hubby

2009-01-01T11:39:00.002+08:00

Tomorrow will be your 1st Anniversary, my beloved hubby..
It's as if yesterday we were laughing together, playing 'lap-lap' together,
hugging each other & being each other's back bones..

A year is like a life time for me..
All throughout this year our prayer for you is unstoppable..
We are sure that U r in GOD's hand..In heaven.

Anyone reading this this post please pray 4 my beloved late hubby & you'll be greatly rewarded bu GOD (adapted from aunty otong's fave phrase,ekekekekekek..pinjam dulu a)

30.06.1973 - 02.01.2008

the early retirement

2008-12-04T15:56:00.004+08:00

Last tuesday I dragged myself & dad to Kota Belud for the early retirement for my beloved late hubby. It was hard actually but I believe that GOD has a plan for me that I'll uncover later.

We had breakfast at Tuaran and I was sooo happy to come back to Tuaran. The food was delicious.

We continues our journey and I purposely passsed-by MPKent.I was so shocked that I almost made an emergency brake upon seeing my old hostel is all burnt down. It was the oldest hostel for MPKent. It' s so sad to see the old hostel area was abandoned with bushes and trees that were taller than the building. Couldnt get the picture of it but I planned to drop by on our way back home.

The journey to Kota Belud was sooo 'bikin panas'. The lame drivers who drove 'gracefully' in front of me, as if we weren't in a highway. Moreover to the drivers in our opposite directions who thought we weren't there by over-taking altho' many in-coming cars.

Upon reaching KB, I panicked for awhile because suddenly there was a big roundabout that made me think for awhile on which route to take. I took a wild guess & luckily we were in the right track.

KB has changed a lot since the last time I went there with my bloved late hubby a few years ago for his 'Anugerah Perkhidmatan Cemerlang'. There were many new buildings but the crowded roads and many dead end roads really never changed.

Well, in the letter stated that registration is at 7.30 a.m. but when we reached at the venue, only 3 women who are also the recipients for the events and 3 guys who in-charge with the PA systems were around. None of the organisers could be seen.

We could only register after an hour later. I was shocked when Pn. Annie Wong grabbed my hand and said, "ok sudah kan semua?" I just said yes and TQ very much. She's one of the most effective and comited officer in the "Pencen" department. I was so blessed and grateful to had settled evertyhing in 8 months for my beloved late hubby's early retirement business. Even my grandma still hasn't settled all her retirement business who is actually retired almost 2 years!

Everyone was astonished to see me seating in the recipients seats provided and even one woman made a joke, "Ai, pencen muda ke?" I just smiled, too complicated. Things were getting vulnerable when more people keep on asking me, "Wakil bapa ka?". I gave up & spilled the beans.

Even when I went to receive the certificate & souvenir, Datuk Normah Gagoh even asked me a few questions.

But what I couldn't bear was talking to another widow beside me who were very strong chatting about her husband's death, her children, how she's coping & moving on, her late huby's unfinished course without showing a little of sorrow and at the same time asking my situation also. I on the other hand, envy how blessed she is to have a daughter and a son from her marriage with her late huby.

I couldn't control my tears and she stopped suddenly from asking upon seeing me crying. She is soooo strong eventhough her husbands death is very recent comparing to me that in a month I would be celebrating his !st anniversary.

Wow, I know everyone's different. At least she has her children as her source of motivation and strength. I know I have sooooooo many people as my source of stregth but I couldnt help envying her situation compared to mine. Well, it's all GOD's plan tho'.

P/s alamak still couldn't upload the pics.will upload later after I come back from bandung. I don't know wat's wrong.

Haiya, haven't finished packing but sempat lagi ni p shopping tadi. C jess la yang tempt sa to buy the dress. Thanx jess 4 accompanying me these 2 days & sacrificing ur precious time. tengkuyu

bad luck??

2008-11-28T11:51:00.003+08:00

Do u believe in bad luck??well, for me vI don't know but I guess I believe in what 'Blog Cabin' mention in her post.So, I let everything happen in it's own way without complaining.

yesterday I went to KK with my fren& her huby.
Well,
the 1st bad luck: Upon reaching Kimanis Papar.There were so many lorries that we had to slow down because the stones & earth were knocking the front window.afraid that it will smack the windows.

2nd bad luck: We directly go to Wisma Merdeka and spent more than 1 hour driving up & down to find empty parking lot!! Most of the cars that came later did get rather than us.It put all the tension in all of us.

3rd bad luck: After shpoping everything at Parkson,we came to the counter to pay our things but upon reaching the counter the cashier informed us that the machine suddenly jammed and we better move to another counter! Thank GOD the next counter we went to wasn't jam also.

4th bad luck: After all things were done. We were leaving KK to Keningau but suddenly it started to rain and when we reached Kimanis highway to Keningau it's already raining heavily.We had to drive carefully.

5th bad luck: When I reached home, my head was aching and I could sense that I'm going to caught flu. I quickly took my shower and slept.
After an hour I was awake with the hammering pain in my head. So, I woke up drank my Vitamin C and continue sleeping.
A few hours later I was awaken by my aching head again. So, I woke out of bed and drank my panadol soluble.
A few hours later I woke up to pee because of too much consuming water and I can still feel the tinging pain in my head & I felt weak.
Thank GOD after that I could sleep peacefully & soundly but awaken around 9.30am. I jumped out of bed remembering my promise to Fenny. Took my shower and was sooo weak to meet her.

Wew...funny huh.Now, I could feel that throat isn't feeling good.hopefully I'll be ok 4 my trip to Bandung next week.

thanksgiving

2008-11-22T23:36:00.007+08:00

I've said my appreciation to all the blessings in my life in my previous post. That's for my families & friends.

As I learn to walk again, I learn a new meaning of love in my new friendship.
I'm sooo rich with ~friendship~ that I realise I'm never short of it!!
Wew! wat a blessing,huh?

People come & go in our life,
We sometimes tried to make friends
but sometimes friendship just happen without we realise it.

&
Dionysia @ Doni (sumandak olundus)
ekekekekekek

Thanksgiving comes but once a year
But thoughts of you all are held so dear
That I always keep them ever near -
For in my heart, all of you are always here.

All of you truly are a blessing to me
And I hope this Thanksgiving that all of you will see
How all of you fill my heart so peacefully
With a love that shall radiate indefinitely.

I'm so thankful to have all of you in my life!

Dionysia @ Doni

(sumandak olundus)
&
Umi Nadiah
(sumandak mantad New Zealand, Pahang)

Not in the picture:
Mrs. Anhancy Rutel, which is so blessed with a loving husband, sweet & brilliant children

Mrs. Wan Rozila, a very humble person with rich good attitude. We never expect a BIG person like her never brag about what she has!!

I just wanted to let all of you know
that all of you are in all of my thanks and prayers;
and I hope that all of you will have a truly wonderful and blessed time in your life..

Butterfly Award

2008-11-22T02:08:00.005+08:00

Well, 1st of all I would like to thank Flo for awarding me this award..

I'm sorry for not picking the award sooner, busy ba flo u know la kita kan end of year makin banyak kerja..

I never thought my blog is cool..but happy if my blog does something to anyone.. GOD bless you all.

Rules if you choose to participate :

1. Put the logo on your blog
2. Add a link to the person who awarded it to you
3. Nominate at least 7 other blogs
4. Add links to these blogs on your blog
5. Leave a message for your nominee on their blog

So, I would like to give this award to...

1. belle

2. kulin tut

3. jeshica andreana

4. anies

5. tity

6. kuai

7. fredo

JeFFFaye

Something to be thankful...

Forgive and forget?

shopping for X'mas?

think outside the box

A full swing exercise

It's never too late...

Raya is almost come to an end...

Kebaikan Puasa

Happy Friendship Day!!

People say love is important but I say oxygen is more importaNT <~ adpted from my cousin Nia @ Valerina's status in FB.

Garang? huh?!!

Working life...

|ife is about making decisions...

HOME~~where my heart is ;)

~~Time For Miracles~~

Life? Is it?~~

All I have...well you know it's yours....

What Is Your security in life?~~ ;>

It's always start with 'a' .....

LEarn to say ENOUGH!!!!!

Things..here and there

Anyone interested to buy??!!

You tell me!!

1. A few pupils ransackd rubbish& spread it in d clasrm &fill d class with bad smell.

2. A few pupils bullied a boy. passing his bag,making him like a monkey.

3. A boy eating lollipop while his teacher is giving advices. Without any sense of guilty.

4. A boy answered his teacher without menace. Thinking he's great.

5. A boy hit his fren who is taller than him. Causing his fren pain at his arm.

6. 2 boys showed their teacher their buts wit d intention 2 provoke their teacher.

seperti yang kau ingini...

While I'm waiting...

Just Want to Share Fr.Erik's Post

Crushed but not Condemned

Food to my soul....

Still alive & kicking!!!

Esok masih ada??

The Belated Hari Guru Peringkat Ranau

what the h@#$k?!!

another great weekends ;)

dua alam....

IS THIS TRUE??!!

Mirror?

what a bad day

the cost of a miracle

over worked??!!

My "sangai's" wedding

did it rain?

Echie @ noraniza's bday

menumbok

GOD send her to HEAVEN

Shopping??huh??

Our Granny's Bday ~Tatti Hilda Jagar Singh

WAT!! Cake??

another seminar???

happiness

"You have turned my mourning into joyful dancing. You have taken away my clothes of mourning and clothed me with joy, that I might sing praises to you and not be silent. O LORD my GOD, I will give you thanks forever" ~`Psalm 30:11-12`~

My Bday ;>

Action Song & Choral Speaking Competition

manikayu

Tagged by my Sangai

UnDeCiDeD

Christ HAs Risen!!! Alleluia! Alleluya!

Women's bestfriend............

Jakarta

My New Collection....

Umi...umi...Happy Bday, Sweet Seventeen..

shopping + excercise + lack of sleep + laugh + lots of food = holidays??>?

Whew!! wat a vacation

children nowadays

Happy Bday DAD, 14 February 2009

Uurgh!!!

wat a scene!! whew~~!

ECHO???

R u worried?

Easier said than done (to SharQ @ 11X)

GOD loves her more....

It's raaaaaainy season....

my trip to bandung 2

tea / coffee anyone?

Time For Miracles