Life is always a struggle

It is not the critic who counts;
not the man who points out how the strong man stumbled
or where the doer of deeds could have done them better.
The credit belongs to the man
who is actually in the arena,
whose face is marred by dust and sweat and blood;
who strives valiantly;
who errs and comes short again and again;
who knows great enthusiasms,
the great devotions;
who spends himself in a worthy cause;
who at the best, knows in the end the triumph of high achievement,
and who, at the worst, if he fails, at least fails while
DARING GREATLY
so that his place shall never be
with those timid souls
who know neither victory or defeat.


Theodore Roosevelt

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I'm blessed

My schedule has been more hectic since January but I'm thankful to God that there will always blessing waiting ahead of me. I'm trying to make the effort to get used to it.


February has been d busiest month so far, I thought last december was d busiest. Tomorrow will be the Choral speaking competition. I'm hoping that my pupils will enjoy it, wasn't hoping to win because I didn't want to get another task. All I have now is more than enough. I salute to all the married teachers who managed to balanced everything. With all the work load and also family matters.

I guess I shouldn't waste today to be mad or stressed because I submitted our 1st group assignment. Yeah, 1st! Another 9 waiting so far. 10 assgnments for 2 of our subjects and still counting for the other two subjects to post their respective assignments. I know I shouldn't be complaining, every had been through that.

I'm amazed at how patience I had been thorughout today. Didn't get enough sleep, my beloved fren who promised to accompany me to submit d assgnment & went for lunch couldn't be reached. I called for 16 times to no avail, bbm for 5 or more to no replies & ping for more than 10 to no replies until I had to call d nieces. Whew! Wat a day!! But I'm not mad! Thank god! I endedn worrying about my beloved fren, thank god my beloved fren is fine only over slept.

Had a great lunch with all d fruits. I'm loving every bits of it! Kalah tutti frutti! No more tutti frutti for me, yes to fresh fruit :)

I'm blessed. Wouldn't ask for a better day, thank God.

One of the great weekend

I'm glad that now I can blog through my blvd smartphone!! :)

These pictures say it all.

Via blackberry

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Chap Goh Mei! :)

Something to be thankful...

Today, I am 28 years and 1 month old! Yippiieee!!

I've wanted to blog about this long before but I guess today would be the day. Even tho' not able to celebrate it with all those who had gone to rest *(beloved Mum, beloved hubby, grandpas,Popo and MSA) I'm still blessed with all the people around me who have filled my life and making my journey memorable. TQ for your prayers and moral support and whatever U do for me. GBU all!!

Life is always a never ending journey. I believe in fate and if this is the life God has planned for me, let it be. But if in the future it suddenly changed direction I accept what is written in my book of life. I have no power to change what is written for me because I believe I have a creator named; GOD. The creator who is always with me in times of good and bad, He knows what is best for me even tho' I feel bitter. He's Above ALL!!

These are the prezzies, ang paus I received! TQ soo much everyone!! Only God could repay all ur generousities. TQ S for trying to surprise me with the bb even tho' the plan didn't work out! hahahaaa... nice try! try again! <3 U all!

Forgive and forget?

The title says it all.. How many times you are being offended by the people around you and also strangers?

Countless isn't, it? I know it's hard to forgive if the matter is big or very heart-breaking, let alone forgetting it.

Somebody told me her story about her bestie being a backstabber and it hurt her deeply that she couldn't look her in the eye. It's so sad their friendship turn out the other way round. But I advised her to learn to forgive and forget tho' it's not easy I said.

Been there before...

What will you do to the person who

~> marred your parents marriage? and

~> made your family fell apart? and

~> made you believe he loved your mom to death

~> acted like an angel and made people believe he was really mourning her death?

~> never showed up or clean her cemetery on her anniversaries? and

~> left leaving the deep scar stayed in your family?

I forgave him. :) Like I said before, it wasn't easy.

It took me years to forgive him and when I forgave him, I feel like my burden has been lifted and I felt a bit ease. My new struggles are mourning my beloved mum's death and praised the LORD above, I could let her go to Rest In Peace.

Now, every time I met him we would chat as if NOTHING ever happened to us in the past. I forgave him cos I know it's all GOD's plan and he's only full-filling his duty as a weak human being. Let GOD judge him and pay for what he did.

Even his new wife and children could talk to me like we had nothing to be mad at. Life is about making decisions. I chose to let go of my hatred because it has been eating me since my childhood time. I know it left a deep scar in my family lives but I guess some lessons we learn it the hard way. I know GOD is preparing us for something bigger and obstacles came to our lives not to destruct us but to instruct us.

No matter how deep the cut is, it all depends on yourselves either to forgive or not. I've watched the destructions and I don't want to make the mistakes that other people made.

~ Life is an accumulated of experiences...

Learning to let go is knowing how to confront it~

I'm still learning to confront it, how about you?

shopping for X'mas?

my cute little cousin is eager to work part-time for school holidays but ended up building a blog for accessories.

try to get something for your friends and family who are teenagers or love accesories? well, tis is d stop-over!!

ENJOY SHOPPING

velvet @ beybet

think outside the box

Watched tis movie last weekend(which I saw in fb, should be in cinema on 25 October 2010) with a great fren, it started with a slow + lame scene and I was guessing that it could be the most lame movie after "The Box". But we waited for awhile hoping it would be something but we ended laughing at how slow every scene and that some scene shouldn't be there.
My fren was furious but made my day when she gave her remarks and comments.. The movie indeed gave me something to laugh at, to enjoy at my partner reaction upon watching at the movie. I enjoyed the discussion after the movie. We left the cinema less than an hour! Wat a waste but we agreed that if we waited longer, we would end up ruining our mood!


The picture above was taken at the @mosphere. The restaurant is awesome!! so relaxing and the food is great!! I had a great time and I'm blessed!!! siooooookkkkkk!!! tQ !!!

A full swing exercise

My life as a student begin this week. I planned my study schedule and directly follow what I plan. Frankly, I had a stress 1st day following my schedule but I'm happy that I didn't lose my temper but had to change it to my bad eating habit!(need to improve my mind control) Haiyaaa...rosak my diet plan 4 dat day~ had 3 heavy meals+ 2 snacking!

Well, my first week of studying didn't happen that easy also. The 2nd day, we had scouts meeting and the conclusion is another pile of work that would interfere my study schedule.. We had to do preparations for the camping which would be held this weekend. Haiya! Another this and that chores..I think I should change my schedule, lessen my time for study because I still has a lot of time for it and I need to adjust it with my work, relaxing time and social activities.

3rd day, a letter came from PPD asking me to submit the PROTIM report for year 6. The funny thing is the letter is dated 24 September 2010 and based on the letter we should conduct a PROTIM test from 26 - 28 September 2010 but it arrived at school on 29 September 2010. hahahaaa... very funny huh?! but for us, teachers; it's a very common thing and some would surely make a commotion about it or maybe directly lose temper and wat some of my 'kelik' would do is "barking to a tree". I'm not that kind of person, I would surely try to submit my report by hook or by crook(correct me if I'm wrong ;) hehehee) in any way as long as I do my job. there's no point talking and talking and causing too much noise any delaying the job. But when someone interfere my job, he better watch out! I respect his intention by reminding me about my job but "barking" at me like I don't know how to do my job and saying things behind my back is soooo not helping!! I do my job and I never delay it, so he better do his own and stop talking if it's not helping! I rather try to find the solution rather than "barking" like a stupid dog! Who does he think he is?!! He's not my super senior or what we called as Penolong Kanan! And he's not even my HEADMASTER!!! I'm not the kind of person who can't accept other people opinion but he's gone too far by complaining and complaining! I don't care who he is, I'm not afraid to fight back! Yes, I don't has a degree like he always bragging about when he was in J****n la..bla..blaa..blaa.. watever!! if he thinks he's perfect or a great person, TRY WALKING ON WATER! haiyaa... he really hasn't open his mind! such a waste for a people older than me, has walked thousands miles across this world to study but forgot that in this whole wide world created by GOD every single thing is unique in its own way and people has different ways on doing a same task! Shame on him! I will put him in an educated people with narrow minded and wasted education list.

4th day, I do my work one task to another. by taking turn. I don't want to burden my mind, my brain and my energy. I will do it, settle it one by one. I love myself and I don't want stress to win. The 'dog' still bark and this time I 'fed' him with thousands of explaination before he even get the chance to complain more!
While I was resting after a lot of none teaching task, we were surprised by a loud crying from a boy. Haiyaaa.... as usual, boys played,fought with each other and ended assaulting each other! the shouting from the teacher in-charge is sooo annoying! Thank GOD the scene ended sooner than we expected.

Curriculum meeting, hmm..it went well and smooth like we planned but when we are about to end it...suddenly... all the teachers who sat near the door went out and watched speechlessly!! we were kept on asking, "wat happened?!" "wat happened?!" but no answer! then suddenly the boy who had fought earlier ran inside the staffroom crying while holding his swell cheek.
He cried hysterically while saying he wanted to ask his dad to come to school ASAP! haiyaa... another commotion! the scene were ended by the teacher in charge and we ended our meeting.
While every one was preparing to leave, another commotion because of the parents of the boy came and said their unsatisfied opinion and chose to settle it with the boy outside the school compound. Well, I don't delay my plan to go home and rushed back.
The positive thing about what happened today is I managed to relax my mind for awhile and forget about my work loads that I should settle by tis week.

5th day, hmmm...what tomorrow lies aaa? heheheee.. I just pray, be patient and hope everything would be settled soon

Wat a drama week! Whew!!~~~~

It's never too late...

I believe that GOD's timing is always right no matter what. People might thought it is late but I believe all GOD's creation is unique in its own way and differ in some aspects.

I'm beginning on something that I was asked or advised to do years ago. It's not forced by any one but I willingly do it. I'm happy GOD has moved me to do so. Okay, my furthering my study now. I know it sounds simple, common, not interesting but I'm happy that this small thing do enlighten my heart and mind. I'm appreciating and enjoying every single good thing that happened in my life. I'm sooo blessed and happy that I get the chance to feel happy at even a single or most people might think as "biasa-biasa".

I'm living my life to the fullest. Enjoying every bits of it because I know when the time comes I won't get the chance to enjoy it and it's no harm enjoying your own life you choose guided by your own creator. I believe in enjoying every moment of it because we never know when it will be taken from us because Every thing in this world is temporary and not for eternal.. Except love to GOD.

I'm amazed that in life people will have different goal even though they are doing the same thing. Last week, GOD purposely introduced me to a mother of three who will be my course mate for this semester. Both of us are furthering our study but with different goal.

Me, for my own achievement in education and also for promotion.

While this beautiful mother is going back to learning for her autism child. She wants to learn on how to understand, help and support her child. It's a struggle for her and her family in dealing her child because it's not easy to understand children with special needs. I'm touched! I felt sooo ashamed of my self and realised that in this whole wide world we need to think or care about others need also.

I wish her luck while reflecting on my own life...Learning from people around me.. Appreciating what GOD has given to all of us.